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Gentleness is Strength

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When I feel my vulnerability…I tremble inside. There is a subtle terror in revealing one’s self. Allowing the masks to drop and unveiling what is most real, can feel pretty scary. It’s like walking around partially naked and feeling like everyone sees that you are different. Noticing that everyone else has on their familiar persona and you are alone in your simplicity.

Sometimes there are others who see, understand and relate. Usually, most people feel a bit uneasy around a defenseless being. Probably because they feel their own protective masks and need to play them out regardless. They seem to get that you aren’t really interested in playing out their game any longer and are not sure what else to do.

I just continue to be imperfectly naked in the ways that are allowing my facades to  drop and to pass through. I am what I am, no more, no less. Not too interested in the greed game or the I’m important because game or the I’m a victim game. Just being here and allowing less to be enough. It allows for a simpler orientation. Not a lot of big story too fill in all the space with. The dramatic responses are becoming  irrelavent and not that interesting.

Who are we without all this. There is a feeling of emptiness that is quite different from being in the stories of the world. A quiet that is a deep aloneness. Sometimes lonely, usually just quiet and every once in a while mind chatter seeking to engage with someone.

Although there is less of a need to engage with anyone’s stories. They are so much of the same old victim paradigm. Not really much new. Then I meet someone and I can feel their heart participating and there’s sincere eye contact and a shared inner knowing that is palpable.

Then the words don’t really matter much. There is an easy natural connection. No one trying to impress or downplay or strategize…just a simple knowing. It’s easier this way. I walk away feeling met and seen. Now being naked is an honest revealing.

There is true strength in this form of gentle connection. Deeper, more aware, penetrating moments piercing through to the fabric of existence. There is a shared knowing which transcends all the misunderstandings of this world. This is communion, deep and real.

Then it is gone. Or is it?  This may actually be a doorway which when opened allows for more true union. Human beings long to belong, to be seen, to get it right and to be good enough. What if we are already home, fully loved and accepted and we just need to be brave enough to be what we are.

When we are transparent in this, we are becoming what we have always been and always will be. Perfectly imperfect beings. Never will we be good enough or get it right in the standards of this world. Yet, we will always strive to hit an even greater mark. Until we realize there truly is no target, we spin the wheels of the mind endlessly stratagizing the next great  conquest. We call this strength.

Of course it seems to take great strength to continue these pursuits.  We are considered brave when the hunter shoots the lion and puts his head on the wall.

How absurd is this strength that ceaselessly tries to get the advantage in the situation.  True bravery comes from revealing and living from the heart. Not superficially, but, rather from a deeper unwinding of the heart. Through so many lifetimes, the heart has been jammed up by the head. Rarely allowed to demonstrate its true strength. We, go along lifetime after lifetime until finally there is a breakthrough. The heart is now here and boy does it hurt.

We have much heartache, betrayal, abandonment, abuse that we have experienced and that we have inflicted. True  courage is allowing the heart to feel again, to breathe life into this beautiful, humble servant.

This is where true strength begins to arise. When we are willing to feel this pain and to forgive it and to love again. This is where real life begins and drama ends. Yes, it hurts…more than anything. Yet, without this remarkable companion life is deadened and the old drama stories get very old. When the heart becomes freer of the old, numbing ways, there is a refreshing, new start. There is a newness, an innocence that is vulnerable, free and open.

Courage comes from the French word ‘cour’ meaning heart. They are inseparable. There is no true courage without the heart. There is mental play…which when felt into is quite superficial. The realm of the heart runs all the way to the soul. They are aligned.

The heart responds to the urgings of the soul.  Which again, can leave one feeling quite alone. The callings, guidance and simple whisperings of the heart are in a different language than the mind. They are far more simple, yet they are profound in their ability to quickly break through the illusions of this world. For this is the greatest tool to awakening which we as human beings have. You would think that a tool this amazing would be commonly employed.

Most are afraid of the true strength and power of the heart. It’s rewards are quite different than that of the mind. Love is not considered a strength in most of the world.

To be gentle is not a power tool, so it is used very infrequently. Rarely is it even eminating from the heart center.  When it is,  it can and will open doors in ways that create the most beautiful transformation for the soul.

This is the mystery, the magic and the magnificence of who we truly are. From the center of our hearts, the soul enters and shifts reality drastically. Who or whatever you think you are is eradicated and adjusted into a human being capable of extraordinary miracles.

These may not add up to millions of dollars or a new Mercedes, but, I assure you, you will feel a shift in reality that will ‘blow your mind’ open.

Once this opening occurs, you will know what you are. Once this is experienced there is a longing for this to become one’s home eternally and truly it is this.

Yet, there is still necessary shedding of the identity that  will then allow more and more and more heartfelt presence. There are moments or passages where there is a reprieve from this healing, but those who are here to awaken usually only get small breathers.

This unwinding of the ego is painful, yet there is an ever increasing simplicity to orient from. This gentle simplicity is your strength, with less and less story to defend, there is more and more presence to live from. Strength becomes gentleness becomes strength.

To your strength;

Andrea
303-545-5485

Trusting this Dance

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Finding ourselves is a deep, lonely, often painful walk into the unknown. There is an almost constant feeling of shedding skin…more and more and more. Often, I am unrecognizable. There is no landing. Just a deeper and deeper dropping into. Nothing to hold onto…we fall into this abyss. Or so it feels to be a dark emptiness. Rarely would you meet anyone who would understand this or even want to. The aloneness feels unnerving at times, yet, superficial connections feel boring.

I am here, yet, I do not know what i am at this point. There is so much shedding that I am raw and I feel a pervasive sadness for having undertaken this life. Had I known it would hurt this much I would never have begun. That this undoing would rip all meaning from my life and leave me so vulnerably naked. That my hot tears will bring no relief…I know. At this point all one can do is shed the tears, helping the lingering fears to soften, to melt. I would wish this pain on no one. Yet, I know this is for everyone. There is the undeniable awareness that we will all journey a similar path of undoing.

I walk ahead and may it lighten the load of those that follow. A reprieve is here. I am softer, a deeper layer broken through…a painful wall relinquished. And so it is…walls, barriers, pain, suffering, sadness, release, reprieve…new territory. I am a bit relieved. I am still here in someway. Yet, I know nothing of what I am.
What is there now…there is only trust. All else is empty.

So, I feel inward and I ask for help. Help me be here now. I cry…so lonely in this passage. Lonely in so many ways, for so long, for so many days. Letting go of old ways, of past days, of memories, of people, of hopes, of dreams.
I am an empty basket…not needing to be filled…just letting the tears melt what’s left.

I don’t know where I am going. I don’t really know where I’ve been. I am learning to trust in my heart and this moment. Breathe with me…let’s be with the tenderness within our hearts…just breathing…slowing down…breathing even more slowly…gently. What does it feel like to trust? Does it mean dropping into the smallest form of connection…like our breathe? Does it mean letting this be enough for this moment? Just breathing. Fear waves moving through…yet, still trusting that my breath is enough. I feel some bodily pain and my mind resisting…just breathing into all this…trusting.

Like a frightened child trusts their mommy’s soft voice ‘everything is going to be ok sweet heart.’ We learn to trust this breath and to treasure this simple way home. We trust that we will breathe and it will be ok. We will still be here in someway, in some form. We change, we evolve, we unwind, we unfold. There is presence here now. We trust that we are this presence and although it hurts like crazy mad, we still trust that this homecoming is what we are here for. The old ways just don’t work well anymore. The games are dried out, empty. No real escapes left, no one to blame…just this letting go and this rising trust.

Beginning as simple as breath, then simple noticing, I am here…some heart ache beginning to soften, a little more ease and even some grace…beautiful music playing and I feel I am beginning to dance again. To rise up from the ashes of a worn out life, yet, again and again and again…I arise for this dance. Gracefully, like a rose subtly beginning to bloom…her petals delicately opening to the morning sun…calling her exquisiteness forth.

It is time…time to open, my dear. Breathe and trust that you are here. What was no longer needed has fallen away.
Death in all her powerful surrender has taken what has worn out away from you and now you may live again. A new life begins…lighter and yet, she is wary…how will she dance now. Where will she dance? With whom will she dance? Tears for all those she has loved and released. All those she wished to dance forever with…leaving the dance floor. She dances every move from the pain of her hearts grieving for all those she has loved and released… so many souls, for so many lifetimes. Once again she dances alone…never wanting to feel this again, yet, knowing this is human love. To love with all our hearts and to dance this fully into our magnificence.

We are so old. Have known and loved so many, yet, the truest dance is within this aloneness, where our hearts are broken open and now the sun begins to shine once again. There is new ground…a settling of the emotional waves and a resting. There is no need to dance right now…just trust. Simply breathing into the life, death and rebirth which is dancing us now.

Purity of Intent

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Sometimes life seems to throw us all around. I wonder what it’s all about? I’m revisiting old painful ways of relating and there is also a newness arising. I am seeing through the façade of old unloving ways. I’m noticing that there is a truth or clarity present as I continue to seek out the love within my own heart. There is a purity here and relentless longing to open to real love.

I feel into the pangs of old ways, that are still quite familiar. Overworking, over reaching, feeling unworthy, afraid to stop, afraid of ongoing aloneness, the silence. Yet, this is all fading away, as I relax instead of overwork, reach inwardly rather than outwardly, slow down, cultivate patience and rest into the silence more than the seeking. I feel a genuine worthiness at home within myself…the aloneness is deeply fulfilling.

This is my true home. Everything is empty outside this. I feel more
restful, less desirous. Needing to prove anything is becoming an old memory, a relentless ghost that is letting go. I am simply here. Finding my way through openness, an open hand. The clenching hand is relaxing now. Just letting go into this intimate awareness. There is a softening acceptance. We are this when we are free.

Long journey…still a bit tired and a little weary. Yet, there is a comfort in finding home. I notice that there is an ease here that is almost never present when I’m with most people. Do you notice this too? There are no urgent tasks, other than what you may need to relax. A few deep breaths, a releasing of the outer world and just sinking into this purity. All is well in this home. All is quiet. There is a growing serenity.

Breathing into my heart. My heart is here, is yours? Yes, I feel our hearts are in peace. I am worthy of this peace, are you? Say with me, ‘I am worthy of this peace. I am worthy of this love. No matter what, I am worthy. I am free to choose this. This is my home.’

Now, we notice the walls we have put into place in and around us that block this purity, this peace, this love from entering.

Am I not good enough and so I keep sabotaging connections that I value? Do I fight to prove my worth, only to lose everything I valued?

Am I unlovable and do I continually choose people who will let me down, disappoint me? Am I afraid to be seen and do I hide my true greatness and inner beauty with people who cannot see my true nature.

Am I afraid to give up the games and so I play them to exhaustion? Am I feeling invalidated and am I desperately seeking outer recognition that is never truly fulfilling?

Please write more in your own journal. Let these blocks tumble down now.

Stop playing these empty games out with yourself an with all others. It is divine right that YOU ARE WORTHY OF THIS PEACE. It is what you are most worthy of.

Let’s recognize this fully together. Reflect on some of the above games that you are playing…how does it feel inside? Not so good…empty, tiring, exhausting. Right?

Breathe into your inner sanctuary, allow this purity in for a few moments. How does this feel? A relief…freeing, softening, even loving. Right?

You can come home to this peace now, but you have to surrender one thing.

This one thing is the willingness to stop playing games within your heart. Everyone has an impeccable truth teller within them. We can play the separation games out, always trying to obtain something. Notice, there is never any lasting peace. Only temporary reprieve from the insatiable desiring for……you fill in the thousands of ways you are pulled away from your peace every moment.

When we can pause this cause and effect cycle and feel into our peaceful home, then the separation game begins to stop. Will I go unloved, unseen, invalidated? No you will begin to feel a deep well of peace and love that will fill you in real and lasting ways. All the emptiness from all the separation games will fill in with this love for yourself and for others. Slowly, as you stop playing the old games, you will feel a peace that strengthens your worthiness. From this worthiness, true self esteem arises and you begin to feel more lightness filling within you. Bypassing the painful way, opening to the loving way.

Now there is guidance from the heart, the sacred truth teller. When your heart speaks to you. Stop, listen and act. Cultivate this…stop, listen and act. I encourage you to stop playing the games. They offer less and less and take more and more of your heart and soul, leaving you with a very painful emptiness, a soulessness. Some will lose everything and still continue the separation from heart and soul.

We have played this out many lifetimes and now we can come home. The doorway is open. Take my hand. If we are to continue, we must bring each other home now. Stop the games, listen to your heart and soul and take right, timely action. Be the worthy, noble being that you truly are. Let this inner peace and love direct you through the games, unhooking you from the separation of your outer directed world.

Welcome to the purity of your true nature. Now you can fill the vessel with the peace and love that you are. I assure you all else is coming from your inner separation and thus it is perpetuating separation. Healing of separation is temporary. Coming home is eternal.

eternally yours;
Andrea
www.radiantaareness.com
303-545-5485
Call for an extraordinary home coming.

Inner Connection

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We play out so many karmic connections until we realize there is a better way. Karma is necessary to learn about ourselves, to evolve more into loving, sincere people. We can bypass karma having to play out as much if we are willing to deepen into our being and access our truest connection. This connecting is like coming home. It is about forgiveness of all the people and events we have called into our lives to teach us. It is to learn more directly, more openly from within ourselves, thus bypassing many difficult, suffering situations.

If we are truly willing to step off the karmic wheel of perpetual life lessons then we can begin to learn more gently, easily, effortlessly from within our own soul. This enables to move about within ourselves and in the world without as much drama. The drama drops. It’s no longer attractive and we begin to cherish this inner communion. Drama is as old as time, so this shift requires devotion and dedication. The more one is orienting to their inner knowing, the more the drama begins to cease.

An inner connection begins to synch up as the main relationship in life. The inner world becomes more alive, more tangibly real. The outer drama, is just a distraction for coming in and feeling into the peace and emptiness which will sustain in ways the drama never could. Notice that most of our experiences seem to be ladened with same repetitive beliefs we have been carrying most of our lives.

We came to heal core issues; like I’m not  good enough, or I’m unworthy of love and meaningful support. No matter how good something appears at first, the old core wound begins to creep back in. Instead running after new experiences to show that the painful belief is not true. Come in instead and just notice that these core wounds are seeking to be held within in a new way. This is about unconditional love being offered within. This loving acceptance allows us to stop playing out the wounded behavior enough so that we can begin to change our outer behavior.

If our wound is that we are not good enough, we will feel this unconditional love is present within us to met it. To bring in the feeling of being more patient and tolerant with ourselves. It may also encourage us to not take more than we can handle, thus failing yet again. We learn to balance our lives out in ways that we are able to care deeply for ourselves and learn to show up for others in balanced ways. When we listen or feel the inner words and nudgings they begin to guide is particular ways that help us to succeed. We may not win the big lottery or reach the top of our profession or create the greatest contribution for humanity or we may.

It just doesn’t matter as much. When we are aligning more fully with our inwardly guided purpose we feel a deep abiding connection to what is truly real. This is the catalyst of a whole new way of living. It enables us to feel a freedom from all the old collective mindset. We can more easily step out of all the old archetypal stories of hero and victim consciousness. then a simpler, purer love connection arises which is about being the love which we are. This will not effectively be used to rescue. It’s more about that saying…teaching people how to fish, rather than giving them fish.

When the victim consciousness stops being rescued, the victim begins to see that they can choose to awaken to a new consciousness or drown. Of course, we have played all these victim, perpetrator, rescuer stories out forever on our planet. Coming home to this realization needs a lot of internal support in the form of insight, awareness, unconditional love and direct guidance around right action. If we overlook these connections and continue to play our new situations, we will find ourselves back on the karmic wheel in the exact same place. This is why so many situations start to bring up the same unhealed beliefs as before. Vey familiar aren’t they.

This time stop and enter into communion with the answer to all this repetitive suffering. Isn’t all getting boring at this point? Has it felt painful enough? Are you ready? Great…then come on in.

Let’s take a brief dive in. Breathe with me, feel into your heart, welcome your heart…the source of the unconditional love connection. Now welcome in your soul…breathing in more deeply. Pause feel into this deeper connection. This may take a minute. We’re just making a connection. Now breathe into your third eye, between your eyes…your guidance for direction in the world resides here. Connect to the crown of your head…where we connect with our awareness and awakening to divine presence.

Great…these are your power connections. There are others within us, but these are the most important now. Feel into being a little more a whole and a little less needy of outer direction.
Recognize that all true power eminates from within this sanctuary. Randomly throughout your die make these connections. Notice if you begin to hear words from deeper within or nudges that help direct how you go about your day. When you are involved in drama, pause for a few minutes and access this inner knowing. Ask, what is most helpful for me to know now? Listen or even better write out your answer. I have a notebook I write in and ask this question almost everyday. It truly helps me to the answer. It may not as directly related to the drama as it is to the understanding that we most need inn that moment.

What we receive from our inner knowing is not ways in which to go back into the karmic lesson and replay it or fix it, rather, it is about how to get out of the cycle completely. This is more about true freedom, not temporary fulfillment. Pausing and deepening, listening and the acting is the way out of all the repetitive suffering. Have you had enough yet? Are you tired, bored and frustrated? Stop, don’t grab for a new life experience, simply connect and listen and use your life experience to free you rather than entrap you.

I assure you if you are lying, controlling, running, attacking or clinging you are stuck. There is one way out of this…develop this inner connection. Then take action to apologize for your mistakes freeing up the karma and most importantly learn from the lesson by behaving from a more mature and aware place within you. If your behavior has harmed an animal, child, adult anyone forgive yourself and apologize either through your words or through new more loving behavior. Listen to your inner connection to learn how to best make amends to yourself or to the other.

Cultivate your inner communion. Come back into peace with yourself. Ask for inner guidance. Listen or feel into this connection. When you know the right direction act on it in a timely manner. If you procrastinate for your egos timing or you don’t follow through at all…no problem…you’ll get to play it over and over again until you can take responsibility for your actions.

Honor these inner connections by making time and space for them. Commune within as much as you can. Cultivate this as your real home. Your inner and outer world will begin to take on the same peace. You will find new, more freeing opportunities, your world will resemble the inner peace which you are honoring.

with great peace an love for your homecoming;

Andrea
www.radianawareness.com
303-545-5485

True Loving

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Love, desire, longing, yearning…deepening, revealing…arising.

A dance of wholeness, welcoming it all, embracing each other’s distance. Sadness…what do you look like? I remember your touch…calming, soothing, passionately alive.

Just being, listening, not knowing. Longing, melting into…deeper surrender…what is this love?

I imagine looking into each other with open eyed amazement and in this moment we see each other…we know each other. Who we are is revealed…the shadow is melting and we are beloved.

Hot tears melting old ways, the separation that has kept us  from seeing the love we are. So much passing through…past lives, this life. Still we are here. Seeing, holding, awakening within the one heart which lives and breathes through us.

There is a sweetness now that is beyond all ideas of what each other is…there is a beautiful reprieve…an innocence that allows this love to bloom…hearts healing, deep forgiveness, releasing  old pain, mind calms. There is a soothing silence that brings forth the words that both  long to behold. ‘I see you…I love you…you are me…there is no other.’  Separation subsides.

In this union we are enough…embracing each other from within deepest chambers of  heart. Gracefully, gratefully offering this love with open hands.  Reaching to one another, touching, holding, enveloping, merging, melting into the chalice that brings divine love to its threshold.

In unison there begins a rhythm, a movement of the one. Soul filled union awakens a deeply fathomable presence… an unparalled awakening to all that is real and everlasting. This tender holding landing like a butterfly on a flower, yet, emblazing the courage to live from this eternal knowing.

Separately we are not enough. We try so hard like lonely children running scared in the night. Yet, the wound of separation runs deeply all the way to the beginning of incarnation on this planet.

When we are seen and our soul mate holds us, welcomes us over and over, cares for us and cries within our deepest sorrows; together we can laugh with abandon of this lonely world. We feel each other deeply  within, separation is over  and finally we rejoice for  this entire incarnation is culminating in an over flowing chalice of love from both hearts that is infinite and eternal and made real in each others beloved presence.

To love one fully is to love all. Until we are seen and held at this deep, core level…the core wounding that we are not enough and that we have to get it right will continue to play out in our lives unmercifully.

We are not here at this point in our planetary awakening to continue to live from this separate ego state. Mother Earth cries out through her immense  depletion…stop all the greed filled games of separation now. You will only be fulfilled through love for each other…not compassion for your suffering…the true love that sees each other.

With utmost sincerity I reveal to you now…you came to be in union with your beloved and to share the overflowing blessing of this union first with each other and then with your soul family. There will be no lasting peace and joy until this homecoming is fully realized and then shared within the unconditional acceptance of each others love.

‘I see you and I behold my own divinity.’ I have journeyed many lives with you and know your soul. You are so much like me, yet we are choosing to play out opposite. The chemistry is palpable, magnet and polarizing. Yet, we continue to dance, yearning for the one love to continue to reveal that you are me…to soften into the reawakening of the beloved in this deep, complete union.

Every wave of attraction and repulsion whispering subtly to your hearts…its time to come home. Stop hurting one another. You have played this fearful dance long enough. There is no where else to go…come home angels of the night. Drop the armour and protection, surrender your hearts to one another on the celebratory table of one love.

The heart welcomes and rejoices…it knows no other way, but to welcome home the love which will set all free. Breathe new life into your hearts…the old games are over.

In this moment of seeing and knowing…there is no other…only the one. There is no one to save or to rescue, there is truly no world. All is surrendered into this sacred fire for the purification of the soul. What arises is the beloved through your forms. He and she are the blessing which given the breathe of life are the creators of the magnificence which until now has laid dormant on this planet.

Deeply suppressed awaiting…enough money, the perfect other, a new car? NO…stop, pause, reflect deeply…you have had all this and more and more and more. The soul is awaiting…the one who can see through your fear, who can call you on all your games, the one who knows your soul fully…who can continue to love you imperfectly in all the chaos, confusion, disorder, control all the futile mechanisms that fear throws at your eyes, hearts and souls to hide love from you. To love you until all the games stop and only love resides. This is here for you now.

You have come to one another for the eternal blessing that is inherent in every soul mate union…you have come to one another to set each other free of all the entrapments of this world. Melting into the union that will comfort, yet purify, transform and awaken your truest nature.

This is love, all else is separation played and replayed lifetime after lifetime. So old are these ego boosting stories, so replayed in yet another moronic version of the same old, same old. Is this not boring to you yet?

We are separate and we have to keep up the games to prove this to our separate selves…lost souls wondering in the darkness of their own egos relentless empty gratifications. Nothing, nothing is more terrifying to the separate self than the completion that this union offers. For the power inherent within the soul mate relationship will bring you home.

Stop running…keep walking bravely into this fire together…come home, bring your beloved home…your heart is enough. Welcome love home.

There is no other mechanism on this planet that will drop a being to their knees in sacred prayer for the eternal revelation inherent within the magnificence of this love.

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The deep abiding truth that these two souls in their passion, their tears, their longings and fears, in all the past that will arise for healing and the future dreams that await revealing, that everything moves through these beloved souls.

Where else can this occur?

This is why the greatest songs, poems, stories, what passes before ones eyes before they die, what people will take their life for…is this soul mate love.

If it is taken for granted and uncared for and dwindles away both souls deeply suffer the passing of this blessed gift…the full realization of divine love. Seize each moment within this awakening…do not fall asleep. Desire for the sight, the touch, the tender knowing of this being, allow your hearts to enfold to one another in sacred divine sweetness. Melt into the blessed knowing that I am you and we are home.

In love always;

Andrea
RadiantAwareness.com
303-545-5485

Empty

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Feel into the quality of your inner world. Notice what challenges and obstacles and feelings are within your world. Now imagine just for a few moments that you could just wish all this away. Now there’s a clean slate, an empty drawing board. Simply breathe into this emptiness…allow it to be empty for just these few moments. Deepen into yourself more and more fully, until your sense of self gets blurry and then poof it’s gone. Like magic what you think you are is gone and there is nothing here.

How is it to be empty of all that you are use to carrying. The habitual drama and ceaseless mental interpretations of reality are pausing…there is this moment and this moment…just breathing into this moment fully. When your mind wanders come back home to this breath…take it in fully. Let this be enough for right now. Feel into more silence, deepen into this absence of story. Feel the quality of stillness of not needing to do anything for just this moment. It’s refreshing…like passing rain on a warm summer’s day leaves everything clean and clear. Let this peace rain all over inside you…cooling and soothing your overactive mind. No need to fill this moment with anyone else, just you, what’s truly you. This deep, well of silence.

Just allowing this silence to fill in all the old drama places and ceaseless mental traces. They are fleeting ghosts passing through now. Let them pass…they have no hold on you in this your true nature. Just passing through sometimes jingling a chain or two, trying to get you to respond. All these old stories, mind thoughts, feelings, memories are just these old ghosts taking up residence in your inner sanctuary.

You are not here to live old memories of yourself or others. You are here to be free each and every moment to engage from this refreshing presence. Turn your back on these ghosts…forgive them for what you thought they did that imprisoned you and them. Surrender them…set them all free.

Once the ghosts settle down and realize you are no longer interested and have stopped replaying the old tapes, they will cease to exist. You may be wondering, what am I without all this ‘stuff’? My question is what are with all this baggage? These ghosts are heavy and they haunt your every move. They are filters that you look at life through and they distort what is real and what is true.

Just for this moment allow them all to be free…every last one. Do this with me…I release all that is past and gone…I forgive and set free all these attachments. See yourself just simply walking by all these ghosts…hundreds, thousands…walk by them now. Keep walking, walk towards the emptiness. Keep moving more deeply into the emptiness, the spaciousness, the silence.

You may still be able to hear them in the background whispering for you to come back to look again and again and make them come alive again and play them out in your life so they become ‘real’ again. I ask you now…is this real, is this reality? Are we just too afraid to let go and find ourselves at home in a peaceful reality? Are we addicted to pushing the replay button and to ceaselessly circling round and round doing the ghost dance, shaking those chains and watching the old bones come alive. Must we live through the dead filter of old memories? Are we afraid there will be nothing left if we let go?

Let’s find out…if you are with me this far, then feel in deeply into the deepest emptiness that is here in this moment…devoid of all. What is still here? This that is here now, what remains is interconnected with all…the all that is empty, the all that is full. But the clinging is easing, the grasping, the relentless trying to make life happen on all these old terms. This is gone…now there is a newness an opening into this moment. This is new. This is without memory or mind…this is full with reality. From this vantage point, you can see, feel and touch existence from within you…soon there is no within you or outside you and now there is no you.

An empty vessel is a blessing. It is freedom from all the illusion. There is no other freedom. No amount of money, love or even health will set you free in this way. Until one has realized…touched, felt, tasted, made love to this, there is still suffering…a perpetual grasping for what can never truly be our home.

This is always here awaiting your disillusionment with the outer world…awaiting your surrender into the void of silence…where all stories cease to exist, where the quiet is breathtaking, where at last in this moment…I am home itself.

It’s from here this inner sanctuary that we truly live. All else is attempts at finding this home in the outer world. When this passage is fully embraced, home is experienced everywhere. The boundaries drop and all is seen and experienced from this awakening to what is. We enter each moment as if it has just rained and left us a clean, clear refreshing encounter with life.

many blessings;

Andrea Jackson
www.RadiantAwarness.com
303-545-5485