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Purity of Intent

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Sometimes life seems to throw us all around. I wonder what it’s all about? I’m revisiting old painful ways of relating and there is also a newness arising. I am seeing through the fa├žade of old unloving ways. I’m noticing that there is a truth or clarity present as I continue to seek out the love within my own heart. There is a purity here and relentless longing to open to real love.

I feel into the pangs of old ways, that are still quite familiar. Overworking, over reaching, feeling unworthy, afraid to stop, afraid of ongoing aloneness, the silence. Yet, this is all fading away, as I relax instead of overwork, reach inwardly rather than outwardly, slow down, cultivate patience and rest into the silence more than the seeking. I feel a genuine worthiness at home within myself…the aloneness is deeply fulfilling.

This is my true home. Everything is empty outside this. I feel more
restful, less desirous. Needing to prove anything is becoming an old memory, a relentless ghost that is letting go. I am simply here. Finding my way through openness, an open hand. The clenching hand is relaxing now. Just letting go into this intimate awareness. There is a softening acceptance. We are this when we are free.

Long journey…still a bit tired and a little weary. Yet, there is a comfort in finding home. I notice that there is an ease here that is almost never present when I’m with most people. Do you notice this too? There are no urgent tasks, other than what you may need to relax. A few deep breaths, a releasing of the outer world and just sinking into this purity. All is well in this home. All is quiet. There is a growing serenity.

Breathing into my heart. My heart is here, is yours? Yes, I feel our hearts are in peace. I am worthy of this peace, are you? Say with me, ‘I am worthy of this peace. I am worthy of this love. No matter what, I am worthy. I am free to choose this. This is my home.’

Now, we notice the walls we have put into place in and around us that block this purity, this peace, this love from entering.

Am I not good enough and so I keep sabotaging connections that I value? Do I fight to prove my worth, only to lose everything I valued?

Am I unlovable and do I continually choose people who will let me down, disappoint me? Am I afraid to be seen and do I hide my true greatness and inner beauty with people who cannot see my true nature.

Am I afraid to give up the games and so I play them to exhaustion? Am I feeling invalidated and am I desperately seeking outer recognition that is never truly fulfilling?

Please write more in your own journal. Let these blocks tumble down now.

Stop playing these empty games out with yourself an with all others. It is divine right that YOU ARE WORTHY OF THIS PEACE. It is what you are most worthy of.

Let’s recognize this fully together. Reflect on some of the above games that you are playing…how does it feel inside? Not so good…empty, tiring, exhausting. Right?

Breathe into your inner sanctuary, allow this purity in for a few moments. How does this feel? A relief…freeing, softening, even loving. Right?

You can come home to this peace now, but you have to surrender one thing.

This one thing is the willingness to stop playing games within your heart. Everyone has an impeccable truth teller within them. We can play the separation games out, always trying to obtain something. Notice, there is never any lasting peace. Only temporary reprieve from the insatiable desiring for……you fill in the thousands of ways you are pulled away from your peace every moment.

When we can pause this cause and effect cycle and feel into our peaceful home, then the separation game begins to stop. Will I go unloved, unseen, invalidated? No you will begin to feel a deep well of peace and love that will fill you in real and lasting ways. All the emptiness from all the separation games will fill in with this love for yourself and for others. Slowly, as you stop playing the old games, you will feel a peace that strengthens your worthiness. From this worthiness, true self esteem arises and you begin to feel more lightness filling within you. Bypassing the painful way, opening to the loving way.

Now there is guidance from the heart, the sacred truth teller. When your heart speaks to you. Stop, listen and act. Cultivate this…stop, listen and act. I encourage you to stop playing the games. They offer less and less and take more and more of your heart and soul, leaving you with a very painful emptiness, a soulessness. Some will lose everything and still continue the separation from heart and soul.

We have played this out many lifetimes and now we can come home. The doorway is open. Take my hand. If we are to continue, we must bring each other home now. Stop the games, listen to your heart and soul and take right, timely action. Be the worthy, noble being that you truly are. Let this inner peace and love direct you through the games, unhooking you from the separation of your outer directed world.

Welcome to the purity of your true nature. Now you can fill the vessel with the peace and love that you are. I assure you all else is coming from your inner separation and thus it is perpetuating separation. Healing of separation is temporary. Coming home is eternal.

eternally yours;
Andrea
www.radiantaareness.com
303-545-5485
Call for an extraordinary home coming.

Empty

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Feel into the quality of your inner world. Notice what challenges and obstacles and feelings are within your world. Now imagine just for a few moments that you could just wish all this away. Now there’s a clean slate, an empty drawing board. Simply breathe into this emptiness…allow it to be empty for just these few moments. Deepen into yourself more and more fully, until your sense of self gets blurry and then poof it’s gone. Like magic what you think you are is gone and there is nothing here.

How is it to be empty of all that you are use to carrying. The habitual drama and ceaseless mental interpretations of reality are pausing…there is this moment and this moment…just breathing into this moment fully. When your mind wanders come back home to this breath…take it in fully. Let this be enough for right now. Feel into more silence, deepen into this absence of story. Feel the quality of stillness of not needing to do anything for just this moment. It’s refreshing…like passing rain on a warm summer’s day leaves everything clean and clear. Let this peace rain all over inside you…cooling and soothing your overactive mind. No need to fill this moment with anyone else, just you, what’s truly you. This deep, well of silence.

Just allowing this silence to fill in all the old drama places and ceaseless mental traces. They are fleeting ghosts passing through now. Let them pass…they have no hold on you in this your true nature. Just passing through sometimes jingling a chain or two, trying to get you to respond. All these old stories, mind thoughts, feelings, memories are just these old ghosts taking up residence in your inner sanctuary.

You are not here to live old memories of yourself or others. You are here to be free each and every moment to engage from this refreshing presence. Turn your back on these ghosts…forgive them for what you thought they did that imprisoned you and them. Surrender them…set them all free.

Once the ghosts settle down and realize you are no longer interested and have stopped replaying the old tapes, they will cease to exist. You may be wondering, what am I without all this ‘stuff’? My question is what are with all this baggage? These ghosts are heavy and they haunt your every move. They are filters that you look at life through and they distort what is real and what is true.

Just for this moment allow them all to be free…every last one. Do this with me…I release all that is past and gone…I forgive and set free all these attachments. See yourself just simply walking by all these ghosts…hundreds, thousands…walk by them now. Keep walking, walk towards the emptiness. Keep moving more deeply into the emptiness, the spaciousness, the silence.

You may still be able to hear them in the background whispering for you to come back to look again and again and make them come alive again and play them out in your life so they become ‘real’ again. I ask you now…is this real, is this reality? Are we just too afraid to let go and find ourselves at home in a peaceful reality? Are we addicted to pushing the replay button and to ceaselessly circling round and round doing the ghost dance, shaking those chains and watching the old bones come alive. Must we live through the dead filter of old memories? Are we afraid there will be nothing left if we let go?

Let’s find out…if you are with me this far, then feel in deeply into the deepest emptiness that is here in this moment…devoid of all. What is still here? This that is here now, what remains is interconnected with all…the all that is empty, the all that is full. But the clinging is easing, the grasping, the relentless trying to make life happen on all these old terms. This is gone…now there is a newness an opening into this moment. This is new. This is without memory or mind…this is full with reality. From this vantage point, you can see, feel and touch existence from within you…soon there is no within you or outside you and now there is no you.

An empty vessel is a blessing. It is freedom from all the illusion. There is no other freedom. No amount of money, love or even health will set you free in this way. Until one has realized…touched, felt, tasted, made love to this, there is still suffering…a perpetual grasping for what can never truly be our home.

This is always here awaiting your disillusionment with the outer world…awaiting your surrender into the void of silence…where all stories cease to exist, where the quiet is breathtaking, where at last in this moment…I am home itself.

It’s from here this inner sanctuary that we truly live. All else is attempts at finding this home in the outer world. When this passage is fully embraced, home is experienced everywhere. The boundaries drop and all is seen and experienced from this awakening to what is. We enter each moment as if it has just rained and left us a clean, clear refreshing encounter with life.

many blessings;

Andrea Jackson
www.RadiantAwarness.com
303-545-5485

Alone in Silence

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Sometimes we have to crawl out of a hole and risk looking up again to see what we are really made of. Life has ups and downs and turn arounds and when we are spry we can dance and move through all this with grace, at other times it’s hard to know what up is. So we calculate and strategize, tell ourselves stories and fearful lies.

Even knowing what up is can be quite perplexing. Maybe we are in a life experience that feels jumbled and crazy and we respond by being arrogant and lazy. Often there are many choices, which way to go, how to fly? So we look around at all we’ve created and we become honest about all that we’ve hated. We begin to see that there’s more than just little me.

We let friends in and we notice our dog, we sit still for a moment and write a blog. Than it begins to flow and my sense of self starts to grow. I’m not alone in all this silence. There’s really aliveness that is living through me and I feel my link to all of eternity. I gradually let go and simply just know that each little word is setting me free…to just be.

I look again and now I am more…I feel my love and things I adore. I’m fond of so much and yet I can see that to know real love is to truly be free. So I remember I have been here so many times before and I’ve well rehearsed stepping through this door. I sit quite still now and simply breathe and allow spirit to picking me up from my knees. The loneliness is real it pangs in my heart and yet I know this is a refreshing start. A life free to live all that is mine and to release and set free all to the divine.

I know this well and yet, I still struggle. What is this dance that drops me in a puddle? That confuses my mind and leaves me with rubble? Where is the elegance, the peace and the joy? Why do I feel like a puppet or toy? Again, I pause and ask more deeply, What is this all about? Why do I want to scream and shout? Let me out, let me out. Alas I fall down and finally let go. The silence is surreal, the emptiness aglow.

Again I look around and I see I’m still here…only what’s left…nothing to fear. I breathe a deep sigh and realize all is well…no more lies. I move more slowly and not as lonely. I feel a comfort begin to enter and open gently to the touch of emptiness…entering my being and surrounding my soul. Is this the dance of becoming whole?

I wonder a moment and now this is gone…I’ve awaited and put off and escaped from this moment for far too long. It’s not what I thought, the lies were deep…melting into this…is like a long lost sleep. It’s restful and quiet and empty of words. It’s here for me now and welcoming me home…to be here and alone in silence.

Life Well Loved

butterflies< As much as we wish for love to be a light, airy journey through the enchanted mysteries of life, it more often is a delving into the comedy and tragedy of all of our hearts’ yearnings, longings, grasping, pushing, pulling, jealousy and insecurity. And then, we have momentary serenity, fleetingly passing through. So why do we enter this semi crazed love dance? Like a moth to the flame, the lure of love is compelling. It is tremendously imperfect, yet it offers the unprecedented opportunity to experience profound moments within our heart space and our lover’s heart space. These are refreshing breathers where we reflect on the aliveness, the exquisite sweetness and beauty and the true bravery of two very different hearts yearning to be seen, held and fully loved back to our eternal nature. No other type of connection offers this much real, juicy aliveness…the opportunity to burn up all the falseness we identify with in each encounter. There’s just too much gaming around in most other connections. In the ‘love relationship’ there is a direct appeal for love. There is a call for awakening through love. For so very long, I played out the spiritually too old and stale motto that love comes from within. Then I was convinced through the ‘Real Love’ Program that love must mostly come in an unconditionally loving formula from others. I realized that with either choice there wasn’t enough. Now, I am authentically aware that love is about standing or falling into the flame of eternal desire and allowing it to consume me. To yell from the pain, laugh from the absurdity, to seize the moment and fall back asleep. It is all this. And yet it is not a real journey. There is no where to go. It is not about getting anything. Truly when the grasping wears down, the palm opens and there is an offering from the vulnerable heart. Now love is perfectly present. The subtle sweetness of the butterflies wings are gently felt with the ease and grace of self mastery. It can rest…no where to go, nothing to do, no grasping, no pushing, pulling, complete relinquishment of all that is…and the story winds down. Now what emerges is grace herself carried on the wings of this delight. She dances and muses with all of life…fluttering, here, there and anywhere she whimsically wishes. Lightness of heart, she is freedom and to all she brings this lightness of being and a treasure to behold. You cannot grab her or she will rapidly dissipate. You can love her in all your being. She will light the way now and help you in every moment to relinquish all the pain and suffering of a life well lived. So the question is where do I find her? She is everywhere, she is nowhere and most truly…she is, always has been, always will be…you. When we dance fully, we exhaust the story…we surrender fully into the fire, we are consumed by the emptiness and the ecstasy of all that is. Now we open our hand and now she will gently grace your life, your love and all that dance within the fires of a life well loved.