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Forgiveness

 

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Nothing heals a broken heart like forgiveness. As long as we keep telling ourselves that others have hurt us, that they are to blame then we miss the blessing of our own healing. When we project our pain onto outer circumstances, or run from it by overworking, or going to other relationships, or deny it by pretending to be other than what we are truly feeling, than we keep ourselves from the only source of our healing.

When we stop the stories, all of them, and begin to embrace our pain, then there is a shift. We are becoming responsible for our own healing.  We come into these lives with an achilles heal, a core pattern. We choose particular parents who will hurt us in ways that make it impossible to deny this pain. We then choose friends or partners who will continue to play this out with us. If your wound is about abandonment, those we love will seem to abandon us in ways that throw salt into our wound. If instead of blaming them, we move inward to our hearts; we have the blessed opportunity to heal.

Learning to live more and more fully from our an inner communion with heart and soul creates wa

ves of unconditional compassion for ourselves and for others. When we realize that this human experience is painful, we see that we are all hurting in different ways. When we can shift our perspective from feeling like we’ve been victimized by something outside us to realizing that this pain is inherent within us, then we soften. As we soften, we deepen into ourselves in ways that relax the defensive patterns and allow for more presence, rather than fearful story telling.

This presence feels like a homecoming.  Now, there may be moments when we realize that everything had to play out as painfully as it did, for us to finally be willing to come home. All the ways in which we play out separation are perfect. When we are ready we learn to pause and communion or come into union with our true nature. As we begin to orient more and more fully from our true nature, it becomes our residence. We may still experience very painful situations and we know we can come home. We can remind ourselves to do whatever will quiet our minds, whatever will soften our hearts, whatever will return us to our soul. Sometimes we take a quiet walk in nature, or a soothing bath, drink lots of water,  hold our dog, cry into a pillow or journal our feelings, hold. We learn to do whatever works in the moment to soften into the truth of our being.

As we let go, we allow everything to simply be as it is. We stop fighting, struggling, deceiving, running, controlling. We breathe into our beingness. Now we can notice that we have an inner world. In this world there is a vast, uncomprehensible reality that is soulful and heartfelt. No one has truly ever hurt us here. We are not victimized. We can begin to see that everything that happened is perfectly orchestrated for our awakening. When we are within this grace, there is nothing to forgive. There is such a palpable awareness of love that we’re able to see why we may have been hurt or why we may have hurt others. We can see beyond the veils of separate illusion and embrace everyone, every experience, everything as having contributed to our wholeness, to the awakening of our heart and soul.

Every great human being has endured and forgiven. This allows for a transcending of the experience.  Our heart and soul are the vehicles for this transformation. As we cultivate this way of being, communion becomes our home base. We know longer dwell in the suffering, we return as quickly as possible, seeing more and more quickly the truth we are needing to embrace about ourselves.  When we are awaken, we realize that we never really leave this home, that we have never truly left this home. We simply chose to play out experiences in order to evolve. When we have learned particular lessons or have evolved beyond the need for having to experience this through others than the experience stops, is no longer an attractive choice.

Older souls, feel the familiarity of this cycle. Letting go more quickly and deepening into one’s self allows for more clarity and more ease to respond with. Then the outer circumstances are secondary to the inner learning taking place. We respond from our hearts and souls and the old story is left behind. Going in more deeply and acting from a more complete sense of self brings relief. Others may or may not support or even understand this shift. What you begin to see is that this doesn’t matter as much. It is difficult to explain this to others. It is your communion with your heart and soul. By acting from this deeper inner knowing you will be relating to your world from a growing sense of peace and well being.

This is the peace the transcends the understanding of the world. You are now living as the greatest vehicle for peace in your world and on this planet. Let others be curious and wonder how you move through life’s challenges with more grace and ease. Forgive them their lack of understanding and live your life as the example.

Purity of Intent

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Sometimes life seems to throw us all around. I wonder what it’s all about? I’m revisiting old painful ways of relating and there is also a newness arising. I am seeing through the façade of old unloving ways. I’m noticing that there is a truth or clarity present as I continue to seek out the love within my own heart. There is a purity here and relentless longing to open to real love.

I feel into the pangs of old ways, that are still quite familiar. Overworking, over reaching, feeling unworthy, afraid to stop, afraid of ongoing aloneness, the silence. Yet, this is all fading away, as I relax instead of overwork, reach inwardly rather than outwardly, slow down, cultivate patience and rest into the silence more than the seeking. I feel a genuine worthiness at home within myself…the aloneness is deeply fulfilling.

This is my true home. Everything is empty outside this. I feel more
restful, less desirous. Needing to prove anything is becoming an old memory, a relentless ghost that is letting go. I am simply here. Finding my way through openness, an open hand. The clenching hand is relaxing now. Just letting go into this intimate awareness. There is a softening acceptance. We are this when we are free.

Long journey…still a bit tired and a little weary. Yet, there is a comfort in finding home. I notice that there is an ease here that is almost never present when I’m with most people. Do you notice this too? There are no urgent tasks, other than what you may need to relax. A few deep breaths, a releasing of the outer world and just sinking into this purity. All is well in this home. All is quiet. There is a growing serenity.

Breathing into my heart. My heart is here, is yours? Yes, I feel our hearts are in peace. I am worthy of this peace, are you? Say with me, ‘I am worthy of this peace. I am worthy of this love. No matter what, I am worthy. I am free to choose this. This is my home.’

Now, we notice the walls we have put into place in and around us that block this purity, this peace, this love from entering.

Am I not good enough and so I keep sabotaging connections that I value? Do I fight to prove my worth, only to lose everything I valued?

Am I unlovable and do I continually choose people who will let me down, disappoint me? Am I afraid to be seen and do I hide my true greatness and inner beauty with people who cannot see my true nature.

Am I afraid to give up the games and so I play them to exhaustion? Am I feeling invalidated and am I desperately seeking outer recognition that is never truly fulfilling?

Please write more in your own journal. Let these blocks tumble down now.

Stop playing these empty games out with yourself an with all others. It is divine right that YOU ARE WORTHY OF THIS PEACE. It is what you are most worthy of.

Let’s recognize this fully together. Reflect on some of the above games that you are playing…how does it feel inside? Not so good…empty, tiring, exhausting. Right?

Breathe into your inner sanctuary, allow this purity in for a few moments. How does this feel? A relief…freeing, softening, even loving. Right?

You can come home to this peace now, but you have to surrender one thing.

This one thing is the willingness to stop playing games within your heart. Everyone has an impeccable truth teller within them. We can play the separation games out, always trying to obtain something. Notice, there is never any lasting peace. Only temporary reprieve from the insatiable desiring for……you fill in the thousands of ways you are pulled away from your peace every moment.

When we can pause this cause and effect cycle and feel into our peaceful home, then the separation game begins to stop. Will I go unloved, unseen, invalidated? No you will begin to feel a deep well of peace and love that will fill you in real and lasting ways. All the emptiness from all the separation games will fill in with this love for yourself and for others. Slowly, as you stop playing the old games, you will feel a peace that strengthens your worthiness. From this worthiness, true self esteem arises and you begin to feel more lightness filling within you. Bypassing the painful way, opening to the loving way.

Now there is guidance from the heart, the sacred truth teller. When your heart speaks to you. Stop, listen and act. Cultivate this…stop, listen and act. I encourage you to stop playing the games. They offer less and less and take more and more of your heart and soul, leaving you with a very painful emptiness, a soulessness. Some will lose everything and still continue the separation from heart and soul.

We have played this out many lifetimes and now we can come home. The doorway is open. Take my hand. If we are to continue, we must bring each other home now. Stop the games, listen to your heart and soul and take right, timely action. Be the worthy, noble being that you truly are. Let this inner peace and love direct you through the games, unhooking you from the separation of your outer directed world.

Welcome to the purity of your true nature. Now you can fill the vessel with the peace and love that you are. I assure you all else is coming from your inner separation and thus it is perpetuating separation. Healing of separation is temporary. Coming home is eternal.

eternally yours;
Andrea
www.radiantaareness.com
303-545-5485
Call for an extraordinary home coming.

Inner Connection

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We play out so many karmic connections until we realize there is a better way. Karma is necessary to learn about ourselves, to evolve more into loving, sincere people. We can bypass karma having to play out as much if we are willing to deepen into our being and access our truest connection. This connecting is like coming home. It is about forgiveness of all the people and events we have called into our lives to teach us. It is to learn more directly, more openly from within ourselves, thus bypassing many difficult, suffering situations.

If we are truly willing to step off the karmic wheel of perpetual life lessons then we can begin to learn more gently, easily, effortlessly from within our own soul. This enables to move about within ourselves and in the world without as much drama. The drama drops. It’s no longer attractive and we begin to cherish this inner communion. Drama is as old as time, so this shift requires devotion and dedication. The more one is orienting to their inner knowing, the more the drama begins to cease.

An inner connection begins to synch up as the main relationship in life. The inner world becomes more alive, more tangibly real. The outer drama, is just a distraction for coming in and feeling into the peace and emptiness which will sustain in ways the drama never could. Notice that most of our experiences seem to be ladened with same repetitive beliefs we have been carrying most of our lives.

We came to heal core issues; like I’m not  good enough, or I’m unworthy of love and meaningful support. No matter how good something appears at first, the old core wound begins to creep back in. Instead running after new experiences to show that the painful belief is not true. Come in instead and just notice that these core wounds are seeking to be held within in a new way. This is about unconditional love being offered within. This loving acceptance allows us to stop playing out the wounded behavior enough so that we can begin to change our outer behavior.

If our wound is that we are not good enough, we will feel this unconditional love is present within us to met it. To bring in the feeling of being more patient and tolerant with ourselves. It may also encourage us to not take more than we can handle, thus failing yet again. We learn to balance our lives out in ways that we are able to care deeply for ourselves and learn to show up for others in balanced ways. When we listen or feel the inner words and nudgings they begin to guide is particular ways that help us to succeed. We may not win the big lottery or reach the top of our profession or create the greatest contribution for humanity or we may.

It just doesn’t matter as much. When we are aligning more fully with our inwardly guided purpose we feel a deep abiding connection to what is truly real. This is the catalyst of a whole new way of living. It enables us to feel a freedom from all the old collective mindset. We can more easily step out of all the old archetypal stories of hero and victim consciousness. then a simpler, purer love connection arises which is about being the love which we are. This will not effectively be used to rescue. It’s more about that saying…teaching people how to fish, rather than giving them fish.

When the victim consciousness stops being rescued, the victim begins to see that they can choose to awaken to a new consciousness or drown. Of course, we have played all these victim, perpetrator, rescuer stories out forever on our planet. Coming home to this realization needs a lot of internal support in the form of insight, awareness, unconditional love and direct guidance around right action. If we overlook these connections and continue to play our new situations, we will find ourselves back on the karmic wheel in the exact same place. This is why so many situations start to bring up the same unhealed beliefs as before. Vey familiar aren’t they.

This time stop and enter into communion with the answer to all this repetitive suffering. Isn’t all getting boring at this point? Has it felt painful enough? Are you ready? Great…then come on in.

Let’s take a brief dive in. Breathe with me, feel into your heart, welcome your heart…the source of the unconditional love connection. Now welcome in your soul…breathing in more deeply. Pause feel into this deeper connection. This may take a minute. We’re just making a connection. Now breathe into your third eye, between your eyes…your guidance for direction in the world resides here. Connect to the crown of your head…where we connect with our awareness and awakening to divine presence.

Great…these are your power connections. There are others within us, but these are the most important now. Feel into being a little more a whole and a little less needy of outer direction.
Recognize that all true power eminates from within this sanctuary. Randomly throughout your die make these connections. Notice if you begin to hear words from deeper within or nudges that help direct how you go about your day. When you are involved in drama, pause for a few minutes and access this inner knowing. Ask, what is most helpful for me to know now? Listen or even better write out your answer. I have a notebook I write in and ask this question almost everyday. It truly helps me to the answer. It may not as directly related to the drama as it is to the understanding that we most need inn that moment.

What we receive from our inner knowing is not ways in which to go back into the karmic lesson and replay it or fix it, rather, it is about how to get out of the cycle completely. This is more about true freedom, not temporary fulfillment. Pausing and deepening, listening and the acting is the way out of all the repetitive suffering. Have you had enough yet? Are you tired, bored and frustrated? Stop, don’t grab for a new life experience, simply connect and listen and use your life experience to free you rather than entrap you.

I assure you if you are lying, controlling, running, attacking or clinging you are stuck. There is one way out of this…develop this inner connection. Then take action to apologize for your mistakes freeing up the karma and most importantly learn from the lesson by behaving from a more mature and aware place within you. If your behavior has harmed an animal, child, adult anyone forgive yourself and apologize either through your words or through new more loving behavior. Listen to your inner connection to learn how to best make amends to yourself or to the other.

Cultivate your inner communion. Come back into peace with yourself. Ask for inner guidance. Listen or feel into this connection. When you know the right direction act on it in a timely manner. If you procrastinate for your egos timing or you don’t follow through at all…no problem…you’ll get to play it over and over again until you can take responsibility for your actions.

Honor these inner connections by making time and space for them. Commune within as much as you can. Cultivate this as your real home. Your inner and outer world will begin to take on the same peace. You will find new, more freeing opportunities, your world will resemble the inner peace which you are honoring.

with great peace an love for your homecoming;

Andrea
www.radianawareness.com
303-545-5485

Soulful Relinquishment

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It is in our aloneness within deep abiding silence that we take the final steps into the soul. What precedes this is a painful release of the world an entry into a deep dark core level passage way. Here, a final offering is made. Within this darkness is the release of all that we thought was spiritual, good and righteous; all the ways we have atoned for our karma. There is a welcoming in of all the previous aspects of ourselves who were until now, denied entry. They were judged and deemed bad, improper, distasteful. Now, we are strong and clear enough to accept and allow these aspects of our previous self to come home. Allowing them to fully integrate into our wholeness.

Like when we smoked or did drugs or hit our child or ran away from home. There are also past life aspects that are coming home. Let them all in. Allow the judgments to drop and let them all come home now. They are all just ways in which you played life out previously, that until now you couldn’t accept or unconditionally love. Now, you wouldn’t act the same, but then it may have made perfect sense why you did what you did. These aspects are still a part of the separated state and need forgiveness and acceptance.

So, they start returning and we act weird and strange and some of them are so painful. Remember, some of these parts of our self have been waiting a long time to come back in, to be reunited with the whole, to be forgiven. We can get completely thrown out of time and space and some may even arise from past painful lives that until now you weren’t strong enough to allow. It isn’t necessary to play out these aspects fully. Although you may find yourselves acting out strange behaviors, like smoking or being overtly sexual.

Sometimes there will be pain, excrutiating pain felt, which is residual memories and felt sense experiencing from the time period they arose in. Just allow this pain to pass through. Sometimes our present life gets distorted through these old lenses or filters. Be assured that everything is being choreographed perfectly for this healing to occur and that is always here and you will be more fully aware after these aspects are integrated.

For entry into the soul precludes any ways of being. There must be a final release, a surrender to all the ways that are deemed to be right or wrong. The soul knows no right or wrong…there is a palpable emptiness which permeates soulfulness. I cannot find any better word to describe the flavor of this land. The entry key is complete and utter abandon and release of the world and integration of all the aspects. They must all come home and then there is an entry way, a clear passage to the soul.

Entry into the soul is a descent. It s pervasively free of ‘good’ behavior. There is no mind here and therefore there is no righteously best way to live or to be. There is an arising of love though that begins to soften this experience and bring a warmth and comfort to your frazzled being. It feels like what the snake must feel when he sheds his skins. Only this is a final shedding and brings with it any extremely vulnerable, naked way of being.

There seems to be no need to cover up, but to be carefree about ones nakedness. There is a more pervasive allowing of everything previously deemed wrong or right. The mind is still functioning, but not in the same way. The mind is operating when necessary to provide certain skills, like driving. Otherwise, it is much quieter.

Often times before this soulful entry, there may be feelings of hysteria or of ‘going crazy’, of having a psychic meltdown. So much is breaking down before this entry that the mind itself can no longer interpret what is real any longer. This happens to such a degree that there are periods when only deep abiding surrender of everything we have known must occur. This is the darkest night of the soul. By this stage of release, you have already undergone many dark nights of the soul and are well equipped to circumnavigate this. Often the pain can be so excrutiating that you might take your life if it weren’t for awareness being present witnessing this culmination.

When the soul becomes the primary driver there is an aloneness, yet, there is also a soothing, serenity. There is more flow within what is occurring an allowing of life to be as it is. There is a mystery living through this being. She is quieter and less needy and can fully function in all the ways she use to. There is more simplicity of mind.

Not for the weak or the cowardly this is truly the land of the free and the brave. Once one has walked through the embers of this fire, there is no turning back to a conditioned life. There are no chains that can hold this rebel. For she is free within the blessed home of her soul. Nowhere else does separation finally banish and freedom come pouring in. Nelson Mandela new this freedom. Upon leaving prison, he stated. ‘If I cannot forgive this whole experience, I will never be free.’ He didn’t live long after he was released, but his final years were lived as an example of a man who had forgiven all and was finally released to die a free man.

We are all in the prison of our minds and of all our unhealed, unforgiven past karmic experiences. This actually is a lot of what our minds are made of. The unconscious mind is the composite of all the people, experiences and situations that we have not yet made full peace with. This is what tortures us. It is like a huge filter that we look at life through.

When we are ready, when we have released enough of this heavy burden basket, then we can enter the freedom of the soul. The soul is our final home. There is a feeling of release now. This is a resting place. Relax, rest, breathe deeply…just allowing what is.

in deep peace;
Andrea
www.radiantawareness.com
303-545-5485

True Loving

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Love, desire, longing, yearning…deepening, revealing…arising.

A dance of wholeness, welcoming it all, embracing each other’s distance. Sadness…what do you look like? I remember your touch…calming, soothing, passionately alive.

Just being, listening, not knowing. Longing, melting into…deeper surrender…what is this love?

I imagine looking into each other with open eyed amazement and in this moment we see each other…we know each other. Who we are is revealed…the shadow is melting and we are beloved.

Hot tears melting old ways, the separation that has kept us  from seeing the love we are. So much passing through…past lives, this life. Still we are here. Seeing, holding, awakening within the one heart which lives and breathes through us.

There is a sweetness now that is beyond all ideas of what each other is…there is a beautiful reprieve…an innocence that allows this love to bloom…hearts healing, deep forgiveness, releasing  old pain, mind calms. There is a soothing silence that brings forth the words that both  long to behold. ‘I see you…I love you…you are me…there is no other.’  Separation subsides.

In this union we are enough…embracing each other from within deepest chambers of  heart. Gracefully, gratefully offering this love with open hands.  Reaching to one another, touching, holding, enveloping, merging, melting into the chalice that brings divine love to its threshold.

In unison there begins a rhythm, a movement of the one. Soul filled union awakens a deeply fathomable presence… an unparalled awakening to all that is real and everlasting. This tender holding landing like a butterfly on a flower, yet, emblazing the courage to live from this eternal knowing.

Separately we are not enough. We try so hard like lonely children running scared in the night. Yet, the wound of separation runs deeply all the way to the beginning of incarnation on this planet.

When we are seen and our soul mate holds us, welcomes us over and over, cares for us and cries within our deepest sorrows; together we can laugh with abandon of this lonely world. We feel each other deeply  within, separation is over  and finally we rejoice for  this entire incarnation is culminating in an over flowing chalice of love from both hearts that is infinite and eternal and made real in each others beloved presence.

To love one fully is to love all. Until we are seen and held at this deep, core level…the core wounding that we are not enough and that we have to get it right will continue to play out in our lives unmercifully.

We are not here at this point in our planetary awakening to continue to live from this separate ego state. Mother Earth cries out through her immense  depletion…stop all the greed filled games of separation now. You will only be fulfilled through love for each other…not compassion for your suffering…the true love that sees each other.

With utmost sincerity I reveal to you now…you came to be in union with your beloved and to share the overflowing blessing of this union first with each other and then with your soul family. There will be no lasting peace and joy until this homecoming is fully realized and then shared within the unconditional acceptance of each others love.

‘I see you and I behold my own divinity.’ I have journeyed many lives with you and know your soul. You are so much like me, yet we are choosing to play out opposite. The chemistry is palpable, magnet and polarizing. Yet, we continue to dance, yearning for the one love to continue to reveal that you are me…to soften into the reawakening of the beloved in this deep, complete union.

Every wave of attraction and repulsion whispering subtly to your hearts…its time to come home. Stop hurting one another. You have played this fearful dance long enough. There is no where else to go…come home angels of the night. Drop the armour and protection, surrender your hearts to one another on the celebratory table of one love.

The heart welcomes and rejoices…it knows no other way, but to welcome home the love which will set all free. Breathe new life into your hearts…the old games are over.

In this moment of seeing and knowing…there is no other…only the one. There is no one to save or to rescue, there is truly no world. All is surrendered into this sacred fire for the purification of the soul. What arises is the beloved through your forms. He and she are the blessing which given the breathe of life are the creators of the magnificence which until now has laid dormant on this planet.

Deeply suppressed awaiting…enough money, the perfect other, a new car? NO…stop, pause, reflect deeply…you have had all this and more and more and more. The soul is awaiting…the one who can see through your fear, who can call you on all your games, the one who knows your soul fully…who can continue to love you imperfectly in all the chaos, confusion, disorder, control all the futile mechanisms that fear throws at your eyes, hearts and souls to hide love from you. To love you until all the games stop and only love resides. This is here for you now.

You have come to one another for the eternal blessing that is inherent in every soul mate union…you have come to one another to set each other free of all the entrapments of this world. Melting into the union that will comfort, yet purify, transform and awaken your truest nature.

This is love, all else is separation played and replayed lifetime after lifetime. So old are these ego boosting stories, so replayed in yet another moronic version of the same old, same old. Is this not boring to you yet?

We are separate and we have to keep up the games to prove this to our separate selves…lost souls wondering in the darkness of their own egos relentless empty gratifications. Nothing, nothing is more terrifying to the separate self than the completion that this union offers. For the power inherent within the soul mate relationship will bring you home.

Stop running…keep walking bravely into this fire together…come home, bring your beloved home…your heart is enough. Welcome love home.

There is no other mechanism on this planet that will drop a being to their knees in sacred prayer for the eternal revelation inherent within the magnificence of this love.

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The deep abiding truth that these two souls in their passion, their tears, their longings and fears, in all the past that will arise for healing and the future dreams that await revealing, that everything moves through these beloved souls.

Where else can this occur?

This is why the greatest songs, poems, stories, what passes before ones eyes before they die, what people will take their life for…is this soul mate love.

If it is taken for granted and uncared for and dwindles away both souls deeply suffer the passing of this blessed gift…the full realization of divine love. Seize each moment within this awakening…do not fall asleep. Desire for the sight, the touch, the tender knowing of this being, allow your hearts to enfold to one another in sacred divine sweetness. Melt into the blessed knowing that I am you and we are home.

In love always;

Andrea
RadiantAwareness.com
303-545-5485