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Gentleness is Strength

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When I feel my vulnerability…I tremble inside. There is a subtle terror in revealing one’s self. Allowing the masks to drop and unveiling what is most real, can feel pretty scary. It’s like walking around partially naked and feeling like everyone sees that you are different. Noticing that everyone else has on their familiar persona and you are alone in your simplicity.

Sometimes there are others who see, understand and relate. Usually, most people feel a bit uneasy around a defenseless being. Probably because they feel their own protective masks and need to play them out regardless. They seem to get that you aren’t really interested in playing out their game any longer and are not sure what else to do.

I just continue to be imperfectly naked in the ways that are allowing my facades to  drop and to pass through. I am what I am, no more, no less. Not too interested in the greed game or the I’m important because game or the I’m a victim game. Just being here and allowing less to be enough. It allows for a simpler orientation. Not a lot of big story too fill in all the space with. The dramatic responses are becoming  irrelavent and not that interesting.

Who are we without all this. There is a feeling of emptiness that is quite different from being in the stories of the world. A quiet that is a deep aloneness. Sometimes lonely, usually just quiet and every once in a while mind chatter seeking to engage with someone.

Although there is less of a need to engage with anyone’s stories. They are so much of the same old victim paradigm. Not really much new. Then I meet someone and I can feel their heart participating and there’s sincere eye contact and a shared inner knowing that is palpable.

Then the words don’t really matter much. There is an easy natural connection. No one trying to impress or downplay or strategize…just a simple knowing. It’s easier this way. I walk away feeling met and seen. Now being naked is an honest revealing.

There is true strength in this form of gentle connection. Deeper, more aware, penetrating moments piercing through to the fabric of existence. There is a shared knowing which transcends all the misunderstandings of this world. This is communion, deep and real.

Then it is gone. Or is it?  This may actually be a doorway which when opened allows for more true union. Human beings long to belong, to be seen, to get it right and to be good enough. What if we are already home, fully loved and accepted and we just need to be brave enough to be what we are.

When we are transparent in this, we are becoming what we have always been and always will be. Perfectly imperfect beings. Never will we be good enough or get it right in the standards of this world. Yet, we will always strive to hit an even greater mark. Until we realize there truly is no target, we spin the wheels of the mind endlessly stratagizing the next great  conquest. We call this strength.

Of course it seems to take great strength to continue these pursuits.  We are considered brave when the hunter shoots the lion and puts his head on the wall.

How absurd is this strength that ceaselessly tries to get the advantage in the situation.  True bravery comes from revealing and living from the heart. Not superficially, but, rather from a deeper unwinding of the heart. Through so many lifetimes, the heart has been jammed up by the head. Rarely allowed to demonstrate its true strength. We, go along lifetime after lifetime until finally there is a breakthrough. The heart is now here and boy does it hurt.

We have much heartache, betrayal, abandonment, abuse that we have experienced and that we have inflicted. True  courage is allowing the heart to feel again, to breathe life into this beautiful, humble servant.

This is where true strength begins to arise. When we are willing to feel this pain and to forgive it and to love again. This is where real life begins and drama ends. Yes, it hurts…more than anything. Yet, without this remarkable companion life is deadened and the old drama stories get very old. When the heart becomes freer of the old, numbing ways, there is a refreshing, new start. There is a newness, an innocence that is vulnerable, free and open.

Courage comes from the French word ‘cour’ meaning heart. They are inseparable. There is no true courage without the heart. There is mental play…which when felt into is quite superficial. The realm of the heart runs all the way to the soul. They are aligned.

The heart responds to the urgings of the soul.  Which again, can leave one feeling quite alone. The callings, guidance and simple whisperings of the heart are in a different language than the mind. They are far more simple, yet they are profound in their ability to quickly break through the illusions of this world. For this is the greatest tool to awakening which we as human beings have. You would think that a tool this amazing would be commonly employed.

Most are afraid of the true strength and power of the heart. It’s rewards are quite different than that of the mind. Love is not considered a strength in most of the world.

To be gentle is not a power tool, so it is used very infrequently. Rarely is it even eminating from the heart center.  When it is,  it can and will open doors in ways that create the most beautiful transformation for the soul.

This is the mystery, the magic and the magnificence of who we truly are. From the center of our hearts, the soul enters and shifts reality drastically. Who or whatever you think you are is eradicated and adjusted into a human being capable of extraordinary miracles.

These may not add up to millions of dollars or a new Mercedes, but, I assure you, you will feel a shift in reality that will ‘blow your mind’ open.

Once this opening occurs, you will know what you are. Once this is experienced there is a longing for this to become one’s home eternally and truly it is this.

Yet, there is still necessary shedding of the identity that  will then allow more and more and more heartfelt presence. There are moments or passages where there is a reprieve from this healing, but those who are here to awaken usually only get small breathers.

This unwinding of the ego is painful, yet there is an ever increasing simplicity to orient from. This gentle simplicity is your strength, with less and less story to defend, there is more and more presence to live from. Strength becomes gentleness becomes strength.

To your strength;

Andrea
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Life Well Loved

butterflies< As much as we wish for love to be a light, airy journey through the enchanted mysteries of life, it more often is a delving into the comedy and tragedy of all of our hearts’ yearnings, longings, grasping, pushing, pulling, jealousy and insecurity. And then, we have momentary serenity, fleetingly passing through. So why do we enter this semi crazed love dance? Like a moth to the flame, the lure of love is compelling. It is tremendously imperfect, yet it offers the unprecedented opportunity to experience profound moments within our heart space and our lover’s heart space. These are refreshing breathers where we reflect on the aliveness, the exquisite sweetness and beauty and the true bravery of two very different hearts yearning to be seen, held and fully loved back to our eternal nature. No other type of connection offers this much real, juicy aliveness…the opportunity to burn up all the falseness we identify with in each encounter. There’s just too much gaming around in most other connections. In the ‘love relationship’ there is a direct appeal for love. There is a call for awakening through love. For so very long, I played out the spiritually too old and stale motto that love comes from within. Then I was convinced through the ‘Real Love’ Program that love must mostly come in an unconditionally loving formula from others. I realized that with either choice there wasn’t enough. Now, I am authentically aware that love is about standing or falling into the flame of eternal desire and allowing it to consume me. To yell from the pain, laugh from the absurdity, to seize the moment and fall back asleep. It is all this. And yet it is not a real journey. There is no where to go. It is not about getting anything. Truly when the grasping wears down, the palm opens and there is an offering from the vulnerable heart. Now love is perfectly present. The subtle sweetness of the butterflies wings are gently felt with the ease and grace of self mastery. It can rest…no where to go, nothing to do, no grasping, no pushing, pulling, complete relinquishment of all that is…and the story winds down. Now what emerges is grace herself carried on the wings of this delight. She dances and muses with all of life…fluttering, here, there and anywhere she whimsically wishes. Lightness of heart, she is freedom and to all she brings this lightness of being and a treasure to behold. You cannot grab her or she will rapidly dissipate. You can love her in all your being. She will light the way now and help you in every moment to relinquish all the pain and suffering of a life well lived. So the question is where do I find her? She is everywhere, she is nowhere and most truly…she is, always has been, always will be…you. When we dance fully, we exhaust the story…we surrender fully into the fire, we are consumed by the emptiness and the ecstasy of all that is. Now we open our hand and now she will gently grace your life, your love and all that dance within the fires of a life well loved.

Re-elating

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Closeness, we love and hate it. It brings us warm and fuzzy feelings from that chemical oxcytocin. We melt and merge and feel lots of juicy love feelings. It’s really the feeling of oneness that allows us to move out of all of those cooler separate feelings we feel we need to thrive in.

Or do we?

Can we have warm and sort of fuzzy feelings and move in and around in the world in the ways that we need to?
How much discernment do we need in our behavior and to see what the other is up to?

Balancing closeness with discernment can be like walking a tight rope. Sometimes it seems that around every relational corner is a surprise ad not always pleasant.

Can we turn these surprises into the material needed for growth, evolution and thereby increase our joy threshold as we expand? Can we allow relational mirroring to bring us fully in front of ourselves? Are we willing to see ourselves deeply and completely?

Or do we turn to stone…co-dependently together in all the ‘right’ ways…daring not to rock the boat. There is a fine balance between relating in the ways we truly need for growth and over challenging and losing the fun, fuzzy factor.

I have not mastered this as of yet. I am looking more deeply into this mystery. I know that I love both…the warm, fuzzy closeness that merges into oneness and the courageous mirror that brings forth deep inner mastery.

Just be ware that if you cling too long or if you’re too discerning, you just may turn to stone.

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Pearl of Great Joy

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There is a pearl of great joy enveloped within the inner chambers of our heart. Allow the layers to open fully, blossoming into the eternal love for all that is. This is beyond unconditional love. This is the point at which all separation is unified and even love itself becomes eternal presence. All past, present and future are seamlessly dissolved into this moment…nothing more, nothing less…just this moment…in full unobstructed presence. The view from here is absolute awe…Welcome home love..Andrea

Create Your Joy

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Create, create, create…

Find your joy…what makes your heart sing? There is a newness in spring that comes to each and every one. Whether we choose to play with this depends. So often, we are stuck in our old stories and we miss the beauty and the wonder of new life.

Babies were recently born on my porch. Every year a mother bird lays her eggs in a hanging candle holder on my porch. They hatch and I listen to them develop the beginning of their joy song. I hear them chirping and singing loudly, for a few days and then they fly off.

I notice the buds on my apple trees, the bugs crawling and flying and the spiders weaving their intricate webs. So much life is awakening. Yet, many of us miss this. Busy, busy…lots of mind chatter…we miss this life. Running here and there, sharing victim stories, complaining and perpetuating suffering…we miss this beauty.

We don’t even notice that we are in the midst of so much creation that is just begging us to stop and play along. The birds are saying…find your joy song, the spiders are saying…weave your web,
the butterflies are saying…bring in color. Find your sounds, laugh, giggle, move, dance, ride your bike, cook, play music…and share, share your joy everywhere.

Many are becoming aware of the earth changes and are scared. What if we all take what we have and just create together. My roommate and I are creating a veggie garden. First time, I have lots of herbs, flowers, lilac bushes, but, this is my first food garden. I am so delighted to imagine cooking or eating raw garden veggies that are my own creations. Really this is such an amazing co-creation between seed, water, sun, my hands, my roommates hands and our caring everyday for this new life.

Yesterday, I made a new friend. We walked and talked in the sun, walking along the Boulder Creek for five and a half hours. Our feet got soar because we were walking part of the time on the sidewalk barefoot. The rest of the time we walked in the soothing fresh green grass. Feeling the grass between our toes was delicious. We even stopped to do yoga poses in the water, balancing on rocks and doing dancer pose on a sand bed. He said it was one of his most enjoyable times.

Let life take you. Just play, stop the mental chatter. Really feel into presence. Immerse yourself in creating your own joyful rainbow web. Get all tangled up in it and laugh…’til tears run down your warm cheeks. Let that old stagnant energy go now. This is your wild and free life…live it now.

You ask what can you do to help your planet?

Live your greatest joy now…

Andrea
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Spiritually Real

 

3 Essentials for Awakening…

I am here with you. No matter where you are or what you are going through…I am with you. How do I know this? I know because as I am here, I am aware of you.

As you read this you are embarking on a miraculous journey. Each word, each sentence eminates awakening, specifically for you. Yes, there are many other directions you could take and may take, but this one is it…the final frontier.

So gather round and lets begin with a deep in breath. Let’s give ourselves full permission to begin this. Now, throughout time and for all sentient beings…we take this first step into the unknowable together. Let’s just set the intention that we offer this to all beings.

Now, we pause and see if we are equipped for this. There are essentials for this journey…

1. Presence in the heart
2. Silent knowing
3. Deliberate action

Like stepping onto the moon, we take this first step onto wholly new ground. Feel into this with me…are your legs shaking a little? Mine are. Where are we? No name, no words to describe…yet, there is a deliciousness to the newness. I feel my heart beating…do you? What does your heart beating feel like? Do you notice it?
Let yourself notice it. Breathe into your heart…fully. Welcome your heart.

Listen…it is so silent here. I hear nothing, yet, these words are still flowing. Soothing, no words, just this still, silent knowing. Beautiful, simple presence…and the mind can relax now, fully. There is still knowing. Knowing doesn’t stop. It arises from the silence. It is newly present. Feel into the ease in this. Pausing and allowing the mind to pass through and knowing to arise.

Take the next step. Step even more deeply into yourself. Pause, breathe, step. Take this step deliberately. Really focus with me…bring all your attention right HERE. Yes, HERE, only HERE. Great you have taken this step, fully, taken this step. How is it to be here, simply taking this step this moment with me, with others?

This is reality.

You are not alone. We are breathing this one heart and stepping into each moment with an impeccable silent knowing together. Enjoy this fullness of being here.

Always, I am here;
Andrea

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