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Gentleness is Strength

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When I feel my vulnerability…I tremble inside. There is a subtle terror in revealing one’s self. Allowing the masks to drop and unveiling what is most real, can feel pretty scary. It’s like walking around partially naked and feeling like everyone sees that you are different. Noticing that everyone else has on their familiar persona and you are alone in your simplicity.

Sometimes there are others who see, understand and relate. Usually, most people feel a bit uneasy around a defenseless being. Probably because they feel their own protective masks and need to play them out regardless. They seem to get that you aren’t really interested in playing out their game any longer and are not sure what else to do.

I just continue to be imperfectly naked in the ways that are allowing my facades to  drop and to pass through. I am what I am, no more, no less. Not too interested in the greed game or the I’m important because game or the I’m a victim game. Just being here and allowing less to be enough. It allows for a simpler orientation. Not a lot of big story too fill in all the space with. The dramatic responses are becoming  irrelavent and not that interesting.

Who are we without all this. There is a feeling of emptiness that is quite different from being in the stories of the world. A quiet that is a deep aloneness. Sometimes lonely, usually just quiet and every once in a while mind chatter seeking to engage with someone.

Although there is less of a need to engage with anyone’s stories. They are so much of the same old victim paradigm. Not really much new. Then I meet someone and I can feel their heart participating and there’s sincere eye contact and a shared inner knowing that is palpable.

Then the words don’t really matter much. There is an easy natural connection. No one trying to impress or downplay or strategize…just a simple knowing. It’s easier this way. I walk away feeling met and seen. Now being naked is an honest revealing.

There is true strength in this form of gentle connection. Deeper, more aware, penetrating moments piercing through to the fabric of existence. There is a shared knowing which transcends all the misunderstandings of this world. This is communion, deep and real.

Then it is gone. Or is it?  This may actually be a doorway which when opened allows for more true union. Human beings long to belong, to be seen, to get it right and to be good enough. What if we are already home, fully loved and accepted and we just need to be brave enough to be what we are.

When we are transparent in this, we are becoming what we have always been and always will be. Perfectly imperfect beings. Never will we be good enough or get it right in the standards of this world. Yet, we will always strive to hit an even greater mark. Until we realize there truly is no target, we spin the wheels of the mind endlessly stratagizing the next great  conquest. We call this strength.

Of course it seems to take great strength to continue these pursuits.  We are considered brave when the hunter shoots the lion and puts his head on the wall.

How absurd is this strength that ceaselessly tries to get the advantage in the situation.  True bravery comes from revealing and living from the heart. Not superficially, but, rather from a deeper unwinding of the heart. Through so many lifetimes, the heart has been jammed up by the head. Rarely allowed to demonstrate its true strength. We, go along lifetime after lifetime until finally there is a breakthrough. The heart is now here and boy does it hurt.

We have much heartache, betrayal, abandonment, abuse that we have experienced and that we have inflicted. True  courage is allowing the heart to feel again, to breathe life into this beautiful, humble servant.

This is where true strength begins to arise. When we are willing to feel this pain and to forgive it and to love again. This is where real life begins and drama ends. Yes, it hurts…more than anything. Yet, without this remarkable companion life is deadened and the old drama stories get very old. When the heart becomes freer of the old, numbing ways, there is a refreshing, new start. There is a newness, an innocence that is vulnerable, free and open.

Courage comes from the French word ‘cour’ meaning heart. They are inseparable. There is no true courage without the heart. There is mental play…which when felt into is quite superficial. The realm of the heart runs all the way to the soul. They are aligned.

The heart responds to the urgings of the soul.  Which again, can leave one feeling quite alone. The callings, guidance and simple whisperings of the heart are in a different language than the mind. They are far more simple, yet they are profound in their ability to quickly break through the illusions of this world. For this is the greatest tool to awakening which we as human beings have. You would think that a tool this amazing would be commonly employed.

Most are afraid of the true strength and power of the heart. It’s rewards are quite different than that of the mind. Love is not considered a strength in most of the world.

To be gentle is not a power tool, so it is used very infrequently. Rarely is it even eminating from the heart center.  When it is,  it can and will open doors in ways that create the most beautiful transformation for the soul.

This is the mystery, the magic and the magnificence of who we truly are. From the center of our hearts, the soul enters and shifts reality drastically. Who or whatever you think you are is eradicated and adjusted into a human being capable of extraordinary miracles.

These may not add up to millions of dollars or a new Mercedes, but, I assure you, you will feel a shift in reality that will ‘blow your mind’ open.

Once this opening occurs, you will know what you are. Once this is experienced there is a longing for this to become one’s home eternally and truly it is this.

Yet, there is still necessary shedding of the identity that  will then allow more and more and more heartfelt presence. There are moments or passages where there is a reprieve from this healing, but those who are here to awaken usually only get small breathers.

This unwinding of the ego is painful, yet there is an ever increasing simplicity to orient from. This gentle simplicity is your strength, with less and less story to defend, there is more and more presence to live from. Strength becomes gentleness becomes strength.

To your strength;

Andrea
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Forgiveness

 

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Nothing heals a broken heart like forgiveness. As long as we keep telling ourselves that others have hurt us, that they are to blame then we miss the blessing of our own healing. When we project our pain onto outer circumstances, or run from it by overworking, or going to other relationships, or deny it by pretending to be other than what we are truly feeling, than we keep ourselves from the only source of our healing.

When we stop the stories, all of them, and begin to embrace our pain, then there is a shift. We are becoming responsible for our own healing.  We come into these lives with an achilles heal, a core pattern. We choose particular parents who will hurt us in ways that make it impossible to deny this pain. We then choose friends or partners who will continue to play this out with us. If your wound is about abandonment, those we love will seem to abandon us in ways that throw salt into our wound. If instead of blaming them, we move inward to our hearts; we have the blessed opportunity to heal.

Learning to live more and more fully from our an inner communion with heart and soul creates wa

ves of unconditional compassion for ourselves and for others. When we realize that this human experience is painful, we see that we are all hurting in different ways. When we can shift our perspective from feeling like we’ve been victimized by something outside us to realizing that this pain is inherent within us, then we soften. As we soften, we deepen into ourselves in ways that relax the defensive patterns and allow for more presence, rather than fearful story telling.

This presence feels like a homecoming.  Now, there may be moments when we realize that everything had to play out as painfully as it did, for us to finally be willing to come home. All the ways in which we play out separation are perfect. When we are ready we learn to pause and communion or come into union with our true nature. As we begin to orient more and more fully from our true nature, it becomes our residence. We may still experience very painful situations and we know we can come home. We can remind ourselves to do whatever will quiet our minds, whatever will soften our hearts, whatever will return us to our soul. Sometimes we take a quiet walk in nature, or a soothing bath, drink lots of water,  hold our dog, cry into a pillow or journal our feelings, hold. We learn to do whatever works in the moment to soften into the truth of our being.

As we let go, we allow everything to simply be as it is. We stop fighting, struggling, deceiving, running, controlling. We breathe into our beingness. Now we can notice that we have an inner world. In this world there is a vast, uncomprehensible reality that is soulful and heartfelt. No one has truly ever hurt us here. We are not victimized. We can begin to see that everything that happened is perfectly orchestrated for our awakening. When we are within this grace, there is nothing to forgive. There is such a palpable awareness of love that we’re able to see why we may have been hurt or why we may have hurt others. We can see beyond the veils of separate illusion and embrace everyone, every experience, everything as having contributed to our wholeness, to the awakening of our heart and soul.

Every great human being has endured and forgiven. This allows for a transcending of the experience.  Our heart and soul are the vehicles for this transformation. As we cultivate this way of being, communion becomes our home base. We know longer dwell in the suffering, we return as quickly as possible, seeing more and more quickly the truth we are needing to embrace about ourselves.  When we are awaken, we realize that we never really leave this home, that we have never truly left this home. We simply chose to play out experiences in order to evolve. When we have learned particular lessons or have evolved beyond the need for having to experience this through others than the experience stops, is no longer an attractive choice.

Older souls, feel the familiarity of this cycle. Letting go more quickly and deepening into one’s self allows for more clarity and more ease to respond with. Then the outer circumstances are secondary to the inner learning taking place. We respond from our hearts and souls and the old story is left behind. Going in more deeply and acting from a more complete sense of self brings relief. Others may or may not support or even understand this shift. What you begin to see is that this doesn’t matter as much. It is difficult to explain this to others. It is your communion with your heart and soul. By acting from this deeper inner knowing you will be relating to your world from a growing sense of peace and well being.

This is the peace the transcends the understanding of the world. You are now living as the greatest vehicle for peace in your world and on this planet. Let others be curious and wonder how you move through life’s challenges with more grace and ease. Forgive them their lack of understanding and live your life as the example.

Inner Connection

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We play out so many karmic connections until we realize there is a better way. Karma is necessary to learn about ourselves, to evolve more into loving, sincere people. We can bypass karma having to play out as much if we are willing to deepen into our being and access our truest connection. This connecting is like coming home. It is about forgiveness of all the people and events we have called into our lives to teach us. It is to learn more directly, more openly from within ourselves, thus bypassing many difficult, suffering situations.

If we are truly willing to step off the karmic wheel of perpetual life lessons then we can begin to learn more gently, easily, effortlessly from within our own soul. This enables to move about within ourselves and in the world without as much drama. The drama drops. It’s no longer attractive and we begin to cherish this inner communion. Drama is as old as time, so this shift requires devotion and dedication. The more one is orienting to their inner knowing, the more the drama begins to cease.

An inner connection begins to synch up as the main relationship in life. The inner world becomes more alive, more tangibly real. The outer drama, is just a distraction for coming in and feeling into the peace and emptiness which will sustain in ways the drama never could. Notice that most of our experiences seem to be ladened with same repetitive beliefs we have been carrying most of our lives.

We came to heal core issues; like I’m not  good enough, or I’m unworthy of love and meaningful support. No matter how good something appears at first, the old core wound begins to creep back in. Instead running after new experiences to show that the painful belief is not true. Come in instead and just notice that these core wounds are seeking to be held within in a new way. This is about unconditional love being offered within. This loving acceptance allows us to stop playing out the wounded behavior enough so that we can begin to change our outer behavior.

If our wound is that we are not good enough, we will feel this unconditional love is present within us to met it. To bring in the feeling of being more patient and tolerant with ourselves. It may also encourage us to not take more than we can handle, thus failing yet again. We learn to balance our lives out in ways that we are able to care deeply for ourselves and learn to show up for others in balanced ways. When we listen or feel the inner words and nudgings they begin to guide is particular ways that help us to succeed. We may not win the big lottery or reach the top of our profession or create the greatest contribution for humanity or we may.

It just doesn’t matter as much. When we are aligning more fully with our inwardly guided purpose we feel a deep abiding connection to what is truly real. This is the catalyst of a whole new way of living. It enables us to feel a freedom from all the old collective mindset. We can more easily step out of all the old archetypal stories of hero and victim consciousness. then a simpler, purer love connection arises which is about being the love which we are. This will not effectively be used to rescue. It’s more about that saying…teaching people how to fish, rather than giving them fish.

When the victim consciousness stops being rescued, the victim begins to see that they can choose to awaken to a new consciousness or drown. Of course, we have played all these victim, perpetrator, rescuer stories out forever on our planet. Coming home to this realization needs a lot of internal support in the form of insight, awareness, unconditional love and direct guidance around right action. If we overlook these connections and continue to play our new situations, we will find ourselves back on the karmic wheel in the exact same place. This is why so many situations start to bring up the same unhealed beliefs as before. Vey familiar aren’t they.

This time stop and enter into communion with the answer to all this repetitive suffering. Isn’t all getting boring at this point? Has it felt painful enough? Are you ready? Great…then come on in.

Let’s take a brief dive in. Breathe with me, feel into your heart, welcome your heart…the source of the unconditional love connection. Now welcome in your soul…breathing in more deeply. Pause feel into this deeper connection. This may take a minute. We’re just making a connection. Now breathe into your third eye, between your eyes…your guidance for direction in the world resides here. Connect to the crown of your head…where we connect with our awareness and awakening to divine presence.

Great…these are your power connections. There are others within us, but these are the most important now. Feel into being a little more a whole and a little less needy of outer direction.
Recognize that all true power eminates from within this sanctuary. Randomly throughout your die make these connections. Notice if you begin to hear words from deeper within or nudges that help direct how you go about your day. When you are involved in drama, pause for a few minutes and access this inner knowing. Ask, what is most helpful for me to know now? Listen or even better write out your answer. I have a notebook I write in and ask this question almost everyday. It truly helps me to the answer. It may not as directly related to the drama as it is to the understanding that we most need inn that moment.

What we receive from our inner knowing is not ways in which to go back into the karmic lesson and replay it or fix it, rather, it is about how to get out of the cycle completely. This is more about true freedom, not temporary fulfillment. Pausing and deepening, listening and the acting is the way out of all the repetitive suffering. Have you had enough yet? Are you tired, bored and frustrated? Stop, don’t grab for a new life experience, simply connect and listen and use your life experience to free you rather than entrap you.

I assure you if you are lying, controlling, running, attacking or clinging you are stuck. There is one way out of this…develop this inner connection. Then take action to apologize for your mistakes freeing up the karma and most importantly learn from the lesson by behaving from a more mature and aware place within you. If your behavior has harmed an animal, child, adult anyone forgive yourself and apologize either through your words or through new more loving behavior. Listen to your inner connection to learn how to best make amends to yourself or to the other.

Cultivate your inner communion. Come back into peace with yourself. Ask for inner guidance. Listen or feel into this connection. When you know the right direction act on it in a timely manner. If you procrastinate for your egos timing or you don’t follow through at all…no problem…you’ll get to play it over and over again until you can take responsibility for your actions.

Honor these inner connections by making time and space for them. Commune within as much as you can. Cultivate this as your real home. Your inner and outer world will begin to take on the same peace. You will find new, more freeing opportunities, your world will resemble the inner peace which you are honoring.

with great peace an love for your homecoming;

Andrea
www.radianawareness.com
303-545-5485

Soulful Relinquishment

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It is in our aloneness within deep abiding silence that we take the final steps into the soul. What precedes this is a painful release of the world an entry into a deep dark core level passage way. Here, a final offering is made. Within this darkness is the release of all that we thought was spiritual, good and righteous; all the ways we have atoned for our karma. There is a welcoming in of all the previous aspects of ourselves who were until now, denied entry. They were judged and deemed bad, improper, distasteful. Now, we are strong and clear enough to accept and allow these aspects of our previous self to come home. Allowing them to fully integrate into our wholeness.

Like when we smoked or did drugs or hit our child or ran away from home. There are also past life aspects that are coming home. Let them all in. Allow the judgments to drop and let them all come home now. They are all just ways in which you played life out previously, that until now you couldn’t accept or unconditionally love. Now, you wouldn’t act the same, but then it may have made perfect sense why you did what you did. These aspects are still a part of the separated state and need forgiveness and acceptance.

So, they start returning and we act weird and strange and some of them are so painful. Remember, some of these parts of our self have been waiting a long time to come back in, to be reunited with the whole, to be forgiven. We can get completely thrown out of time and space and some may even arise from past painful lives that until now you weren’t strong enough to allow. It isn’t necessary to play out these aspects fully. Although you may find yourselves acting out strange behaviors, like smoking or being overtly sexual.

Sometimes there will be pain, excrutiating pain felt, which is residual memories and felt sense experiencing from the time period they arose in. Just allow this pain to pass through. Sometimes our present life gets distorted through these old lenses or filters. Be assured that everything is being choreographed perfectly for this healing to occur and that is always here and you will be more fully aware after these aspects are integrated.

For entry into the soul precludes any ways of being. There must be a final release, a surrender to all the ways that are deemed to be right or wrong. The soul knows no right or wrong…there is a palpable emptiness which permeates soulfulness. I cannot find any better word to describe the flavor of this land. The entry key is complete and utter abandon and release of the world and integration of all the aspects. They must all come home and then there is an entry way, a clear passage to the soul.

Entry into the soul is a descent. It s pervasively free of ‘good’ behavior. There is no mind here and therefore there is no righteously best way to live or to be. There is an arising of love though that begins to soften this experience and bring a warmth and comfort to your frazzled being. It feels like what the snake must feel when he sheds his skins. Only this is a final shedding and brings with it any extremely vulnerable, naked way of being.

There seems to be no need to cover up, but to be carefree about ones nakedness. There is a more pervasive allowing of everything previously deemed wrong or right. The mind is still functioning, but not in the same way. The mind is operating when necessary to provide certain skills, like driving. Otherwise, it is much quieter.

Often times before this soulful entry, there may be feelings of hysteria or of ‘going crazy’, of having a psychic meltdown. So much is breaking down before this entry that the mind itself can no longer interpret what is real any longer. This happens to such a degree that there are periods when only deep abiding surrender of everything we have known must occur. This is the darkest night of the soul. By this stage of release, you have already undergone many dark nights of the soul and are well equipped to circumnavigate this. Often the pain can be so excrutiating that you might take your life if it weren’t for awareness being present witnessing this culmination.

When the soul becomes the primary driver there is an aloneness, yet, there is also a soothing, serenity. There is more flow within what is occurring an allowing of life to be as it is. There is a mystery living through this being. She is quieter and less needy and can fully function in all the ways she use to. There is more simplicity of mind.

Not for the weak or the cowardly this is truly the land of the free and the brave. Once one has walked through the embers of this fire, there is no turning back to a conditioned life. There are no chains that can hold this rebel. For she is free within the blessed home of her soul. Nowhere else does separation finally banish and freedom come pouring in. Nelson Mandela new this freedom. Upon leaving prison, he stated. ‘If I cannot forgive this whole experience, I will never be free.’ He didn’t live long after he was released, but his final years were lived as an example of a man who had forgiven all and was finally released to die a free man.

We are all in the prison of our minds and of all our unhealed, unforgiven past karmic experiences. This actually is a lot of what our minds are made of. The unconscious mind is the composite of all the people, experiences and situations that we have not yet made full peace with. This is what tortures us. It is like a huge filter that we look at life through.

When we are ready, when we have released enough of this heavy burden basket, then we can enter the freedom of the soul. The soul is our final home. There is a feeling of release now. This is a resting place. Relax, rest, breathe deeply…just allowing what is.

in deep peace;
Andrea
www.radiantawareness.com
303-545-5485

True Loving

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Love, desire, longing, yearning…deepening, revealing…arising.

A dance of wholeness, welcoming it all, embracing each other’s distance. Sadness…what do you look like? I remember your touch…calming, soothing, passionately alive.

Just being, listening, not knowing. Longing, melting into…deeper surrender…what is this love?

I imagine looking into each other with open eyed amazement and in this moment we see each other…we know each other. Who we are is revealed…the shadow is melting and we are beloved.

Hot tears melting old ways, the separation that has kept us  from seeing the love we are. So much passing through…past lives, this life. Still we are here. Seeing, holding, awakening within the one heart which lives and breathes through us.

There is a sweetness now that is beyond all ideas of what each other is…there is a beautiful reprieve…an innocence that allows this love to bloom…hearts healing, deep forgiveness, releasing  old pain, mind calms. There is a soothing silence that brings forth the words that both  long to behold. ‘I see you…I love you…you are me…there is no other.’  Separation subsides.

In this union we are enough…embracing each other from within deepest chambers of  heart. Gracefully, gratefully offering this love with open hands.  Reaching to one another, touching, holding, enveloping, merging, melting into the chalice that brings divine love to its threshold.

In unison there begins a rhythm, a movement of the one. Soul filled union awakens a deeply fathomable presence… an unparalled awakening to all that is real and everlasting. This tender holding landing like a butterfly on a flower, yet, emblazing the courage to live from this eternal knowing.

Separately we are not enough. We try so hard like lonely children running scared in the night. Yet, the wound of separation runs deeply all the way to the beginning of incarnation on this planet.

When we are seen and our soul mate holds us, welcomes us over and over, cares for us and cries within our deepest sorrows; together we can laugh with abandon of this lonely world. We feel each other deeply  within, separation is over  and finally we rejoice for  this entire incarnation is culminating in an over flowing chalice of love from both hearts that is infinite and eternal and made real in each others beloved presence.

To love one fully is to love all. Until we are seen and held at this deep, core level…the core wounding that we are not enough and that we have to get it right will continue to play out in our lives unmercifully.

We are not here at this point in our planetary awakening to continue to live from this separate ego state. Mother Earth cries out through her immense  depletion…stop all the greed filled games of separation now. You will only be fulfilled through love for each other…not compassion for your suffering…the true love that sees each other.

With utmost sincerity I reveal to you now…you came to be in union with your beloved and to share the overflowing blessing of this union first with each other and then with your soul family. There will be no lasting peace and joy until this homecoming is fully realized and then shared within the unconditional acceptance of each others love.

‘I see you and I behold my own divinity.’ I have journeyed many lives with you and know your soul. You are so much like me, yet we are choosing to play out opposite. The chemistry is palpable, magnet and polarizing. Yet, we continue to dance, yearning for the one love to continue to reveal that you are me…to soften into the reawakening of the beloved in this deep, complete union.

Every wave of attraction and repulsion whispering subtly to your hearts…its time to come home. Stop hurting one another. You have played this fearful dance long enough. There is no where else to go…come home angels of the night. Drop the armour and protection, surrender your hearts to one another on the celebratory table of one love.

The heart welcomes and rejoices…it knows no other way, but to welcome home the love which will set all free. Breathe new life into your hearts…the old games are over.

In this moment of seeing and knowing…there is no other…only the one. There is no one to save or to rescue, there is truly no world. All is surrendered into this sacred fire for the purification of the soul. What arises is the beloved through your forms. He and she are the blessing which given the breathe of life are the creators of the magnificence which until now has laid dormant on this planet.

Deeply suppressed awaiting…enough money, the perfect other, a new car? NO…stop, pause, reflect deeply…you have had all this and more and more and more. The soul is awaiting…the one who can see through your fear, who can call you on all your games, the one who knows your soul fully…who can continue to love you imperfectly in all the chaos, confusion, disorder, control all the futile mechanisms that fear throws at your eyes, hearts and souls to hide love from you. To love you until all the games stop and only love resides. This is here for you now.

You have come to one another for the eternal blessing that is inherent in every soul mate union…you have come to one another to set each other free of all the entrapments of this world. Melting into the union that will comfort, yet purify, transform and awaken your truest nature.

This is love, all else is separation played and replayed lifetime after lifetime. So old are these ego boosting stories, so replayed in yet another moronic version of the same old, same old. Is this not boring to you yet?

We are separate and we have to keep up the games to prove this to our separate selves…lost souls wondering in the darkness of their own egos relentless empty gratifications. Nothing, nothing is more terrifying to the separate self than the completion that this union offers. For the power inherent within the soul mate relationship will bring you home.

Stop running…keep walking bravely into this fire together…come home, bring your beloved home…your heart is enough. Welcome love home.

There is no other mechanism on this planet that will drop a being to their knees in sacred prayer for the eternal revelation inherent within the magnificence of this love.

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The deep abiding truth that these two souls in their passion, their tears, their longings and fears, in all the past that will arise for healing and the future dreams that await revealing, that everything moves through these beloved souls.

Where else can this occur?

This is why the greatest songs, poems, stories, what passes before ones eyes before they die, what people will take their life for…is this soul mate love.

If it is taken for granted and uncared for and dwindles away both souls deeply suffer the passing of this blessed gift…the full realization of divine love. Seize each moment within this awakening…do not fall asleep. Desire for the sight, the touch, the tender knowing of this being, allow your hearts to enfold to one another in sacred divine sweetness. Melt into the blessed knowing that I am you and we are home.

In love always;

Andrea
RadiantAwareness.com
303-545-5485

Just Wondering

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Wondering is a spacious quality. It allows for life to unfold. It entwines curiosity with quietness and the result is openness for life to enter. When we plan too much, expect a lot, need life to bring us what we want in all the ways that we approve of, we strangle this quality. Then we get resistance. Within all this resistance is our suffering. We get wound too tight and we act out through drama.

Wondering is like a breath of fresh air. It opens the door for possibilities that didn’t previously exist and enables life to flow to us with greater ease. When we can step back, push the pause button and let life flow to us, then there as an ease. When we pursue, pushing, pulling and prodding at experiences then we lose sight of the bigger perspective.

What if all this life is choreographed perfectly from the vantage point of our soul. What if every encounter with every person is called into our lives to show us that we are the reality makers. That what we sow, we reap, that who we are, we are seeing through the ways we interpret each and every experience. What if what seems bad or wrong is really an attempt to have us expand our mindset to incorporate new ways of seeing? What if what we dislike is pushing us to let go of our judgements and to look from a larger, more wonderous vantage point?

When we let go of our death grip on reality…we are exposed to more of what we were resisting before. Then we can live more freely, less attached to the behaviors which caused us suffering previously. We can invite in the more wonderous ways of being with everything that arises in our lives. When we are willing to drop our story and just wonder, there is an expansive moment which shifts reality. We can begin to feel the edginess shifting and can feel new freedom within. We can drop the old story line, which creates more space for a new way of being to arise.

Sometimes, we may have to take a long pause, if the story is old and repetitively played out. This long pause is the invitation to this freedom. In these pauses, we are allowing grace to enter and to take over for us.

Grace knows how to dance within your life. She knows how to set you free from your suffering. Invite her in and watch how life loosens its death grip on you. Watch how miraculous new ways of being simply express through your thoughts, words and actions. Truly she is a masterful dancer.

All that is needed is to wonder…what if there is a better way? Pause for this wonderous way to enter each attachment to suffering. Watch how easily you begin to move and dance with her. She is your greatest companion. She loves and accepts you in all that you are and wants nothing more for you than your freedom. Be grateful for her she is yours now and forever. Just remember to wonder with her…

Your companion in awakening;

Andrea Jackson
www.radiantawareness.com
303-545-5485

Alone in Silence

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Sometimes we have to crawl out of a hole and risk looking up again to see what we are really made of. Life has ups and downs and turn arounds and when we are spry we can dance and move through all this with grace, at other times it’s hard to know what up is. So we calculate and strategize, tell ourselves stories and fearful lies.

Even knowing what up is can be quite perplexing. Maybe we are in a life experience that feels jumbled and crazy and we respond by being arrogant and lazy. Often there are many choices, which way to go, how to fly? So we look around at all we’ve created and we become honest about all that we’ve hated. We begin to see that there’s more than just little me.

We let friends in and we notice our dog, we sit still for a moment and write a blog. Than it begins to flow and my sense of self starts to grow. I’m not alone in all this silence. There’s really aliveness that is living through me and I feel my link to all of eternity. I gradually let go and simply just know that each little word is setting me free…to just be.

I look again and now I am more…I feel my love and things I adore. I’m fond of so much and yet I can see that to know real love is to truly be free. So I remember I have been here so many times before and I’ve well rehearsed stepping through this door. I sit quite still now and simply breathe and allow spirit to picking me up from my knees. The loneliness is real it pangs in my heart and yet I know this is a refreshing start. A life free to live all that is mine and to release and set free all to the divine.

I know this well and yet, I still struggle. What is this dance that drops me in a puddle? That confuses my mind and leaves me with rubble? Where is the elegance, the peace and the joy? Why do I feel like a puppet or toy? Again, I pause and ask more deeply, What is this all about? Why do I want to scream and shout? Let me out, let me out. Alas I fall down and finally let go. The silence is surreal, the emptiness aglow.

Again I look around and I see I’m still here…only what’s left…nothing to fear. I breathe a deep sigh and realize all is well…no more lies. I move more slowly and not as lonely. I feel a comfort begin to enter and open gently to the touch of emptiness…entering my being and surrounding my soul. Is this the dance of becoming whole?

I wonder a moment and now this is gone…I’ve awaited and put off and escaped from this moment for far too long. It’s not what I thought, the lies were deep…melting into this…is like a long lost sleep. It’s restful and quiet and empty of words. It’s here for me now and welcoming me home…to be here and alone in silence.

Create Your Joy

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Create, create, create…

Find your joy…what makes your heart sing? There is a newness in spring that comes to each and every one. Whether we choose to play with this depends. So often, we are stuck in our old stories and we miss the beauty and the wonder of new life.

Babies were recently born on my porch. Every year a mother bird lays her eggs in a hanging candle holder on my porch. They hatch and I listen to them develop the beginning of their joy song. I hear them chirping and singing loudly, for a few days and then they fly off.

I notice the buds on my apple trees, the bugs crawling and flying and the spiders weaving their intricate webs. So much life is awakening. Yet, many of us miss this. Busy, busy…lots of mind chatter…we miss this life. Running here and there, sharing victim stories, complaining and perpetuating suffering…we miss this beauty.

We don’t even notice that we are in the midst of so much creation that is just begging us to stop and play along. The birds are saying…find your joy song, the spiders are saying…weave your web,
the butterflies are saying…bring in color. Find your sounds, laugh, giggle, move, dance, ride your bike, cook, play music…and share, share your joy everywhere.

Many are becoming aware of the earth changes and are scared. What if we all take what we have and just create together. My roommate and I are creating a veggie garden. First time, I have lots of herbs, flowers, lilac bushes, but, this is my first food garden. I am so delighted to imagine cooking or eating raw garden veggies that are my own creations. Really this is such an amazing co-creation between seed, water, sun, my hands, my roommates hands and our caring everyday for this new life.

Yesterday, I made a new friend. We walked and talked in the sun, walking along the Boulder Creek for five and a half hours. Our feet got soar because we were walking part of the time on the sidewalk barefoot. The rest of the time we walked in the soothing fresh green grass. Feeling the grass between our toes was delicious. We even stopped to do yoga poses in the water, balancing on rocks and doing dancer pose on a sand bed. He said it was one of his most enjoyable times.

Let life take you. Just play, stop the mental chatter. Really feel into presence. Immerse yourself in creating your own joyful rainbow web. Get all tangled up in it and laugh…’til tears run down your warm cheeks. Let that old stagnant energy go now. This is your wild and free life…live it now.

You ask what can you do to help your planet?

Live your greatest joy now…

Andrea
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Fabric of Existence

As we stroll through our lives. Within all the ordinariness and the unusual and the impossible, there lies a depth of knowing. When this is activated, acknowledged and lived from, we awaken to the true nature of reality. When we bypass this depth, we become entangled in many superficial life passages. These experiences can inundate, overwhelm, preoccupy and deny reality.

So much of our existence here is swept up in these dramas and yet, there are these precious moments when life itself stops and something amazing is revealed. When I say amazing I am referring to the peaceful, blissful fabric which is always here underlying all this drama. As we struggle with or day in, day out patterned ways living, there are these moments when we realize that there is more to all this.

Yesterday, while connecting with someone in her office, we both heard a woman shrieking. We looked at each other quizzically and both leaped for the doorway. Within a few moments, reality had changed drastically. We both picked up speed quickly and ran to the woman. She had dropped her 6 week old baby on the ground and was devastated. Quickly assessing, as I am comfortable in crisis and have clearing gifts, I began clearing the energy, reassuring the woman that her baby was ok and directed her to breathe into her belly and stay grounded. I knew her baby was distressed because she was distressed. Yet, she was inconsolable for about 15 minutes. The baby was fine as I had intuited.

It was interesting to see how the mother was hysterical, yet, the baby was calm. The mother was blaming herself while the baby, moved gently in her arms. The mother had condemned herself and was confessing to all the immense problems she had in her life. Single mom, father didn’t want the baby and more. For at least 15-20 minutes she did not notice her baby at all.

During this experience, as it has been for most crisis, I felt immensely present and could feel deeply into a peaceful presence. I placed my hands on the woman and her baby and her little girl, simply allowing this energy to pass through. It was a silent offering, here for her, when she was ready to receive it.

I spoke with her today, the day after her crisis and she was quite grateful that her baby was fine.

We often carry so many drama stories within us that in any given moment, most of us could probably spew out a series of lifelong victimizations. Yet, at any point, we can stop, notice the preciousness right in front of us and embrace it fully. When the mother was able to stop the stories and breathe into the new life that was within her arms, she could see that this young guy was a real trooper and was handling the experience quite well. Of course, this was verified by the EMT.

Funny, how in a moment of presence I knew he was fine and it was his mom who was carrying an immense amount of suffering, who needed the clearing and support.

I know it is easy for me to have seen all this, because it was not my baby falling on the sidewalk. I was removed enough and able to feel the underlying peace that this situation was calling forth through me. This is always the fabric of each unfolding situation. The more we realize that this is the reality, the more we awaken to an ease and grace of all

Andrea

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Spiritually Real

 

3 Essentials for Awakening…

I am here with you. No matter where you are or what you are going through…I am with you. How do I know this? I know because as I am here, I am aware of you.

As you read this you are embarking on a miraculous journey. Each word, each sentence eminates awakening, specifically for you. Yes, there are many other directions you could take and may take, but this one is it…the final frontier.

So gather round and lets begin with a deep in breath. Let’s give ourselves full permission to begin this. Now, throughout time and for all sentient beings…we take this first step into the unknowable together. Let’s just set the intention that we offer this to all beings.

Now, we pause and see if we are equipped for this. There are essentials for this journey…

1. Presence in the heart
2. Silent knowing
3. Deliberate action

Like stepping onto the moon, we take this first step onto wholly new ground. Feel into this with me…are your legs shaking a little? Mine are. Where are we? No name, no words to describe…yet, there is a deliciousness to the newness. I feel my heart beating…do you? What does your heart beating feel like? Do you notice it?
Let yourself notice it. Breathe into your heart…fully. Welcome your heart.

Listen…it is so silent here. I hear nothing, yet, these words are still flowing. Soothing, no words, just this still, silent knowing. Beautiful, simple presence…and the mind can relax now, fully. There is still knowing. Knowing doesn’t stop. It arises from the silence. It is newly present. Feel into the ease in this. Pausing and allowing the mind to pass through and knowing to arise.

Take the next step. Step even more deeply into yourself. Pause, breathe, step. Take this step deliberately. Really focus with me…bring all your attention right HERE. Yes, HERE, only HERE. Great you have taken this step, fully, taken this step. How is it to be here, simply taking this step this moment with me, with others?

This is reality.

You are not alone. We are breathing this one heart and stepping into each moment with an impeccable silent knowing together. Enjoy this fullness of being here.

Always, I am here;
Andrea

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