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Gentleness is Strength

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When I feel my vulnerability…I tremble inside. There is a subtle terror in revealing one’s self. Allowing the masks to drop and unveiling what is most real, can feel pretty scary. It’s like walking around partially naked and feeling like everyone sees that you are different. Noticing that everyone else has on their familiar persona and you are alone in your simplicity.

Sometimes there are others who see, understand and relate. Usually, most people feel a bit uneasy around a defenseless being. Probably because they feel their own protective masks and need to play them out regardless. They seem to get that you aren’t really interested in playing out their game any longer and are not sure what else to do.

I just continue to be imperfectly naked in the ways that are allowing my facades to  drop and to pass through. I am what I am, no more, no less. Not too interested in the greed game or the I’m important because game or the I’m a victim game. Just being here and allowing less to be enough. It allows for a simpler orientation. Not a lot of big story too fill in all the space with. The dramatic responses are becoming  irrelavent and not that interesting.

Who are we without all this. There is a feeling of emptiness that is quite different from being in the stories of the world. A quiet that is a deep aloneness. Sometimes lonely, usually just quiet and every once in a while mind chatter seeking to engage with someone.

Although there is less of a need to engage with anyone’s stories. They are so much of the same old victim paradigm. Not really much new. Then I meet someone and I can feel their heart participating and there’s sincere eye contact and a shared inner knowing that is palpable.

Then the words don’t really matter much. There is an easy natural connection. No one trying to impress or downplay or strategize…just a simple knowing. It’s easier this way. I walk away feeling met and seen. Now being naked is an honest revealing.

There is true strength in this form of gentle connection. Deeper, more aware, penetrating moments piercing through to the fabric of existence. There is a shared knowing which transcends all the misunderstandings of this world. This is communion, deep and real.

Then it is gone. Or is it?  This may actually be a doorway which when opened allows for more true union. Human beings long to belong, to be seen, to get it right and to be good enough. What if we are already home, fully loved and accepted and we just need to be brave enough to be what we are.

When we are transparent in this, we are becoming what we have always been and always will be. Perfectly imperfect beings. Never will we be good enough or get it right in the standards of this world. Yet, we will always strive to hit an even greater mark. Until we realize there truly is no target, we spin the wheels of the mind endlessly stratagizing the next great  conquest. We call this strength.

Of course it seems to take great strength to continue these pursuits.  We are considered brave when the hunter shoots the lion and puts his head on the wall.

How absurd is this strength that ceaselessly tries to get the advantage in the situation.  True bravery comes from revealing and living from the heart. Not superficially, but, rather from a deeper unwinding of the heart. Through so many lifetimes, the heart has been jammed up by the head. Rarely allowed to demonstrate its true strength. We, go along lifetime after lifetime until finally there is a breakthrough. The heart is now here and boy does it hurt.

We have much heartache, betrayal, abandonment, abuse that we have experienced and that we have inflicted. True  courage is allowing the heart to feel again, to breathe life into this beautiful, humble servant.

This is where true strength begins to arise. When we are willing to feel this pain and to forgive it and to love again. This is where real life begins and drama ends. Yes, it hurts…more than anything. Yet, without this remarkable companion life is deadened and the old drama stories get very old. When the heart becomes freer of the old, numbing ways, there is a refreshing, new start. There is a newness, an innocence that is vulnerable, free and open.

Courage comes from the French word ‘cour’ meaning heart. They are inseparable. There is no true courage without the heart. There is mental play…which when felt into is quite superficial. The realm of the heart runs all the way to the soul. They are aligned.

The heart responds to the urgings of the soul.  Which again, can leave one feeling quite alone. The callings, guidance and simple whisperings of the heart are in a different language than the mind. They are far more simple, yet they are profound in their ability to quickly break through the illusions of this world. For this is the greatest tool to awakening which we as human beings have. You would think that a tool this amazing would be commonly employed.

Most are afraid of the true strength and power of the heart. It’s rewards are quite different than that of the mind. Love is not considered a strength in most of the world.

To be gentle is not a power tool, so it is used very infrequently. Rarely is it even eminating from the heart center.  When it is,  it can and will open doors in ways that create the most beautiful transformation for the soul.

This is the mystery, the magic and the magnificence of who we truly are. From the center of our hearts, the soul enters and shifts reality drastically. Who or whatever you think you are is eradicated and adjusted into a human being capable of extraordinary miracles.

These may not add up to millions of dollars or a new Mercedes, but, I assure you, you will feel a shift in reality that will ‘blow your mind’ open.

Once this opening occurs, you will know what you are. Once this is experienced there is a longing for this to become one’s home eternally and truly it is this.

Yet, there is still necessary shedding of the identity that  will then allow more and more and more heartfelt presence. There are moments or passages where there is a reprieve from this healing, but those who are here to awaken usually only get small breathers.

This unwinding of the ego is painful, yet there is an ever increasing simplicity to orient from. This gentle simplicity is your strength, with less and less story to defend, there is more and more presence to live from. Strength becomes gentleness becomes strength.

To your strength;

Andrea
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Forgiveness

 

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Nothing heals a broken heart like forgiveness. As long as we keep telling ourselves that others have hurt us, that they are to blame then we miss the blessing of our own healing. When we project our pain onto outer circumstances, or run from it by overworking, or going to other relationships, or deny it by pretending to be other than what we are truly feeling, than we keep ourselves from the only source of our healing.

When we stop the stories, all of them, and begin to embrace our pain, then there is a shift. We are becoming responsible for our own healing.  We come into these lives with an achilles heal, a core pattern. We choose particular parents who will hurt us in ways that make it impossible to deny this pain. We then choose friends or partners who will continue to play this out with us. If your wound is about abandonment, those we love will seem to abandon us in ways that throw salt into our wound. If instead of blaming them, we move inward to our hearts; we have the blessed opportunity to heal.

Learning to live more and more fully from our an inner communion with heart and soul creates wa

ves of unconditional compassion for ourselves and for others. When we realize that this human experience is painful, we see that we are all hurting in different ways. When we can shift our perspective from feeling like we’ve been victimized by something outside us to realizing that this pain is inherent within us, then we soften. As we soften, we deepen into ourselves in ways that relax the defensive patterns and allow for more presence, rather than fearful story telling.

This presence feels like a homecoming.  Now, there may be moments when we realize that everything had to play out as painfully as it did, for us to finally be willing to come home. All the ways in which we play out separation are perfect. When we are ready we learn to pause and communion or come into union with our true nature. As we begin to orient more and more fully from our true nature, it becomes our residence. We may still experience very painful situations and we know we can come home. We can remind ourselves to do whatever will quiet our minds, whatever will soften our hearts, whatever will return us to our soul. Sometimes we take a quiet walk in nature, or a soothing bath, drink lots of water,  hold our dog, cry into a pillow or journal our feelings, hold. We learn to do whatever works in the moment to soften into the truth of our being.

As we let go, we allow everything to simply be as it is. We stop fighting, struggling, deceiving, running, controlling. We breathe into our beingness. Now we can notice that we have an inner world. In this world there is a vast, uncomprehensible reality that is soulful and heartfelt. No one has truly ever hurt us here. We are not victimized. We can begin to see that everything that happened is perfectly orchestrated for our awakening. When we are within this grace, there is nothing to forgive. There is such a palpable awareness of love that we’re able to see why we may have been hurt or why we may have hurt others. We can see beyond the veils of separate illusion and embrace everyone, every experience, everything as having contributed to our wholeness, to the awakening of our heart and soul.

Every great human being has endured and forgiven. This allows for a transcending of the experience.  Our heart and soul are the vehicles for this transformation. As we cultivate this way of being, communion becomes our home base. We know longer dwell in the suffering, we return as quickly as possible, seeing more and more quickly the truth we are needing to embrace about ourselves.  When we are awaken, we realize that we never really leave this home, that we have never truly left this home. We simply chose to play out experiences in order to evolve. When we have learned particular lessons or have evolved beyond the need for having to experience this through others than the experience stops, is no longer an attractive choice.

Older souls, feel the familiarity of this cycle. Letting go more quickly and deepening into one’s self allows for more clarity and more ease to respond with. Then the outer circumstances are secondary to the inner learning taking place. We respond from our hearts and souls and the old story is left behind. Going in more deeply and acting from a more complete sense of self brings relief. Others may or may not support or even understand this shift. What you begin to see is that this doesn’t matter as much. It is difficult to explain this to others. It is your communion with your heart and soul. By acting from this deeper inner knowing you will be relating to your world from a growing sense of peace and well being.

This is the peace the transcends the understanding of the world. You are now living as the greatest vehicle for peace in your world and on this planet. Let others be curious and wonder how you move through life’s challenges with more grace and ease. Forgive them their lack of understanding and live your life as the example.

Purity of Intent

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Sometimes life seems to throw us all around. I wonder what it’s all about? I’m revisiting old painful ways of relating and there is also a newness arising. I am seeing through the façade of old unloving ways. I’m noticing that there is a truth or clarity present as I continue to seek out the love within my own heart. There is a purity here and relentless longing to open to real love.

I feel into the pangs of old ways, that are still quite familiar. Overworking, over reaching, feeling unworthy, afraid to stop, afraid of ongoing aloneness, the silence. Yet, this is all fading away, as I relax instead of overwork, reach inwardly rather than outwardly, slow down, cultivate patience and rest into the silence more than the seeking. I feel a genuine worthiness at home within myself…the aloneness is deeply fulfilling.

This is my true home. Everything is empty outside this. I feel more
restful, less desirous. Needing to prove anything is becoming an old memory, a relentless ghost that is letting go. I am simply here. Finding my way through openness, an open hand. The clenching hand is relaxing now. Just letting go into this intimate awareness. There is a softening acceptance. We are this when we are free.

Long journey…still a bit tired and a little weary. Yet, there is a comfort in finding home. I notice that there is an ease here that is almost never present when I’m with most people. Do you notice this too? There are no urgent tasks, other than what you may need to relax. A few deep breaths, a releasing of the outer world and just sinking into this purity. All is well in this home. All is quiet. There is a growing serenity.

Breathing into my heart. My heart is here, is yours? Yes, I feel our hearts are in peace. I am worthy of this peace, are you? Say with me, ‘I am worthy of this peace. I am worthy of this love. No matter what, I am worthy. I am free to choose this. This is my home.’

Now, we notice the walls we have put into place in and around us that block this purity, this peace, this love from entering.

Am I not good enough and so I keep sabotaging connections that I value? Do I fight to prove my worth, only to lose everything I valued?

Am I unlovable and do I continually choose people who will let me down, disappoint me? Am I afraid to be seen and do I hide my true greatness and inner beauty with people who cannot see my true nature.

Am I afraid to give up the games and so I play them to exhaustion? Am I feeling invalidated and am I desperately seeking outer recognition that is never truly fulfilling?

Please write more in your own journal. Let these blocks tumble down now.

Stop playing these empty games out with yourself an with all others. It is divine right that YOU ARE WORTHY OF THIS PEACE. It is what you are most worthy of.

Let’s recognize this fully together. Reflect on some of the above games that you are playing…how does it feel inside? Not so good…empty, tiring, exhausting. Right?

Breathe into your inner sanctuary, allow this purity in for a few moments. How does this feel? A relief…freeing, softening, even loving. Right?

You can come home to this peace now, but you have to surrender one thing.

This one thing is the willingness to stop playing games within your heart. Everyone has an impeccable truth teller within them. We can play the separation games out, always trying to obtain something. Notice, there is never any lasting peace. Only temporary reprieve from the insatiable desiring for……you fill in the thousands of ways you are pulled away from your peace every moment.

When we can pause this cause and effect cycle and feel into our peaceful home, then the separation game begins to stop. Will I go unloved, unseen, invalidated? No you will begin to feel a deep well of peace and love that will fill you in real and lasting ways. All the emptiness from all the separation games will fill in with this love for yourself and for others. Slowly, as you stop playing the old games, you will feel a peace that strengthens your worthiness. From this worthiness, true self esteem arises and you begin to feel more lightness filling within you. Bypassing the painful way, opening to the loving way.

Now there is guidance from the heart, the sacred truth teller. When your heart speaks to you. Stop, listen and act. Cultivate this…stop, listen and act. I encourage you to stop playing the games. They offer less and less and take more and more of your heart and soul, leaving you with a very painful emptiness, a soulessness. Some will lose everything and still continue the separation from heart and soul.

We have played this out many lifetimes and now we can come home. The doorway is open. Take my hand. If we are to continue, we must bring each other home now. Stop the games, listen to your heart and soul and take right, timely action. Be the worthy, noble being that you truly are. Let this inner peace and love direct you through the games, unhooking you from the separation of your outer directed world.

Welcome to the purity of your true nature. Now you can fill the vessel with the peace and love that you are. I assure you all else is coming from your inner separation and thus it is perpetuating separation. Healing of separation is temporary. Coming home is eternal.

eternally yours;
Andrea
www.radiantaareness.com
303-545-5485
Call for an extraordinary home coming.

Pearl of Great Joy

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There is a pearl of great joy enveloped within the inner chambers of our heart. Allow the layers to open fully, blossoming into the eternal love for all that is. This is beyond unconditional love. This is the point at which all separation is unified and even love itself becomes eternal presence. All past, present and future are seamlessly dissolved into this moment…nothing more, nothing less…just this moment…in full unobstructed presence. The view from here is absolute awe…Welcome home love..Andrea

Create Your Joy

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Create, create, create…

Find your joy…what makes your heart sing? There is a newness in spring that comes to each and every one. Whether we choose to play with this depends. So often, we are stuck in our old stories and we miss the beauty and the wonder of new life.

Babies were recently born on my porch. Every year a mother bird lays her eggs in a hanging candle holder on my porch. They hatch and I listen to them develop the beginning of their joy song. I hear them chirping and singing loudly, for a few days and then they fly off.

I notice the buds on my apple trees, the bugs crawling and flying and the spiders weaving their intricate webs. So much life is awakening. Yet, many of us miss this. Busy, busy…lots of mind chatter…we miss this life. Running here and there, sharing victim stories, complaining and perpetuating suffering…we miss this beauty.

We don’t even notice that we are in the midst of so much creation that is just begging us to stop and play along. The birds are saying…find your joy song, the spiders are saying…weave your web,
the butterflies are saying…bring in color. Find your sounds, laugh, giggle, move, dance, ride your bike, cook, play music…and share, share your joy everywhere.

Many are becoming aware of the earth changes and are scared. What if we all take what we have and just create together. My roommate and I are creating a veggie garden. First time, I have lots of herbs, flowers, lilac bushes, but, this is my first food garden. I am so delighted to imagine cooking or eating raw garden veggies that are my own creations. Really this is such an amazing co-creation between seed, water, sun, my hands, my roommates hands and our caring everyday for this new life.

Yesterday, I made a new friend. We walked and talked in the sun, walking along the Boulder Creek for five and a half hours. Our feet got soar because we were walking part of the time on the sidewalk barefoot. The rest of the time we walked in the soothing fresh green grass. Feeling the grass between our toes was delicious. We even stopped to do yoga poses in the water, balancing on rocks and doing dancer pose on a sand bed. He said it was one of his most enjoyable times.

Let life take you. Just play, stop the mental chatter. Really feel into presence. Immerse yourself in creating your own joyful rainbow web. Get all tangled up in it and laugh…’til tears run down your warm cheeks. Let that old stagnant energy go now. This is your wild and free life…live it now.

You ask what can you do to help your planet?

Live your greatest joy now…

Andrea
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Fabric of Existence

As we stroll through our lives. Within all the ordinariness and the unusual and the impossible, there lies a depth of knowing. When this is activated, acknowledged and lived from, we awaken to the true nature of reality. When we bypass this depth, we become entangled in many superficial life passages. These experiences can inundate, overwhelm, preoccupy and deny reality.

So much of our existence here is swept up in these dramas and yet, there are these precious moments when life itself stops and something amazing is revealed. When I say amazing I am referring to the peaceful, blissful fabric which is always here underlying all this drama. As we struggle with or day in, day out patterned ways living, there are these moments when we realize that there is more to all this.

Yesterday, while connecting with someone in her office, we both heard a woman shrieking. We looked at each other quizzically and both leaped for the doorway. Within a few moments, reality had changed drastically. We both picked up speed quickly and ran to the woman. She had dropped her 6 week old baby on the ground and was devastated. Quickly assessing, as I am comfortable in crisis and have clearing gifts, I began clearing the energy, reassuring the woman that her baby was ok and directed her to breathe into her belly and stay grounded. I knew her baby was distressed because she was distressed. Yet, she was inconsolable for about 15 minutes. The baby was fine as I had intuited.

It was interesting to see how the mother was hysterical, yet, the baby was calm. The mother was blaming herself while the baby, moved gently in her arms. The mother had condemned herself and was confessing to all the immense problems she had in her life. Single mom, father didn’t want the baby and more. For at least 15-20 minutes she did not notice her baby at all.

During this experience, as it has been for most crisis, I felt immensely present and could feel deeply into a peaceful presence. I placed my hands on the woman and her baby and her little girl, simply allowing this energy to pass through. It was a silent offering, here for her, when she was ready to receive it.

I spoke with her today, the day after her crisis and she was quite grateful that her baby was fine.

We often carry so many drama stories within us that in any given moment, most of us could probably spew out a series of lifelong victimizations. Yet, at any point, we can stop, notice the preciousness right in front of us and embrace it fully. When the mother was able to stop the stories and breathe into the new life that was within her arms, she could see that this young guy was a real trooper and was handling the experience quite well. Of course, this was verified by the EMT.

Funny, how in a moment of presence I knew he was fine and it was his mom who was carrying an immense amount of suffering, who needed the clearing and support.

I know it is easy for me to have seen all this, because it was not my baby falling on the sidewalk. I was removed enough and able to feel the underlying peace that this situation was calling forth through me. This is always the fabric of each unfolding situation. The more we realize that this is the reality, the more we awaken to an ease and grace of all

Andrea

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Spiritually Real

 

3 Essentials for Awakening…

I am here with you. No matter where you are or what you are going through…I am with you. How do I know this? I know because as I am here, I am aware of you.

As you read this you are embarking on a miraculous journey. Each word, each sentence eminates awakening, specifically for you. Yes, there are many other directions you could take and may take, but this one is it…the final frontier.

So gather round and lets begin with a deep in breath. Let’s give ourselves full permission to begin this. Now, throughout time and for all sentient beings…we take this first step into the unknowable together. Let’s just set the intention that we offer this to all beings.

Now, we pause and see if we are equipped for this. There are essentials for this journey…

1. Presence in the heart
2. Silent knowing
3. Deliberate action

Like stepping onto the moon, we take this first step onto wholly new ground. Feel into this with me…are your legs shaking a little? Mine are. Where are we? No name, no words to describe…yet, there is a deliciousness to the newness. I feel my heart beating…do you? What does your heart beating feel like? Do you notice it?
Let yourself notice it. Breathe into your heart…fully. Welcome your heart.

Listen…it is so silent here. I hear nothing, yet, these words are still flowing. Soothing, no words, just this still, silent knowing. Beautiful, simple presence…and the mind can relax now, fully. There is still knowing. Knowing doesn’t stop. It arises from the silence. It is newly present. Feel into the ease in this. Pausing and allowing the mind to pass through and knowing to arise.

Take the next step. Step even more deeply into yourself. Pause, breathe, step. Take this step deliberately. Really focus with me…bring all your attention right HERE. Yes, HERE, only HERE. Great you have taken this step, fully, taken this step. How is it to be here, simply taking this step this moment with me, with others?

This is reality.

You are not alone. We are breathing this one heart and stepping into each moment with an impeccable silent knowing together. Enjoy this fullness of being here.

Always, I am here;
Andrea

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